as i lay there
 

dear friends

as i get ready to go for my mri
it came in waves
i would breakdown
pull myself together
and that was the cycle
until we got there
my eldest held my hand
i realize i am not alone in this
i became a part of this family
i made my decision
removal double mastectomy
i cannot begin to explain
when i get up it is like that movie
ground hog day
is this really happening
it is
results of mri due in by wednesday
already made my appointment
i can still feel it
it is creepy knowing
my body is rotting away
i'm being eaten alive
the quicker they are off
as painful as it sounds
i must live
my body aches with other problems
2 surgeries
since my cervical fusion
many things have gone wrong
neurosurgeon is now put on back burner
until i take care of my cancer
radical as it is my chances of life
is hopeful
i'm scared
God is good
whatever it takes
for me to do his work
i have been through much
but i am still here
anyone can leave this earth
some quicker than others
there has got to be a reason
i am here
i will keep posting
as i need any support given
thanks for letting me share
i too am here for you anyway possible
listen to your body