Just a moment to post son denied SSD appeal 2 more x's
 

I finally had a week things slowed at work, not around here though, to stop in and actually post. I read to make sure how things are going, mainly in the middle of the night. Like today it is 8 AM and I am still awake.

When I restarted Lexapro the insomnia, not even feeling tired for 24 hrs came back. SO I have to follow my own advise and break it into quarters and halfs and work up to my full dose.

I am taking the kids to Fl on March 6th over their break a few days and need to get sleep patterns back, so I may just forget about the Lexapro and take a Klonopin a day instead. I felt good to go until the recent income news for ds.

Te long process with SSD for my son is ongoing, at least 4 years and now the two denials, a hearing and lost, an appeal, denied, another appeal and after another $$$$ we got the letter yesterday he is denied again. These are the appeals after the full hearing. Even the voc rehab said he could not use his arms due to the surgeries to protect himself, or property of others.

Lumbar fracture and facet joint issue, cervical herniations, migraine and cluster headaches, fybromyagia, nerve damage to the arms and hands, torn rotator cuff 2 surgeries, still not healed, side affect to many meds. This week it was the odd unending hiccups that they finally gave him thorzine in ER after 3 trips down there.

THat is the main reason I am killing myself working, he has no income. If he had the SSD, they would not be rich, but at least would have an income. Now I am frantic. I spend as much time in ER's, doctors for Pain management and helping him as I did for my daughter. He uis not on her meds, thus pain level is sky high too.

The judge first said he could work doing security, he is not even reliable to help me with my work, and then judge said....not the original injury he is disabled from, it is new and the work quarters do not count.

So I am super frustrated feeling my health go to crap, kidneys are an issue, BP is up from it, many days I don't work like this week I am in PJ's all day. I sit and look at the laundry I washed and can't even hold my arms up to fold. Last week in two days I had 440 miles on the car dh drove, but when I got back and tried to get out of the car I was so sore and pain, I crawled up the steps.

Our plan is to at least file again for SSI and if that does not work, then he may have to move home again so I do not have the two households to support. He does have an annuity for his medical which is a few thousand coming in April. I am just waiting until then and see if he gets the SSI, before I go back to the doctors.

I have had the BP up and few spells; nausea, throw up, clammy sweat and anxious dread overwhelming dread. THen it passes. Only had it happen twice, but afraid to let the doctor know as it does pass.
Thinking it is the PTSD now that the denial came that we were sure was going to work out okay.
It is 12 years since his back fracture, arm injury and all the surgeries. SSI is not much but at least it is something..

Hate to be sounding so down, or drained, just needed this break this week and better news...I applied for a full time job from my home doing special investigations, but that is going to jeopardise my own SSD.

Wish I could have a Coke and good cry, but I do not even drink it, oh I have been having Ginger Ale odd for me?????

But I need to get some sleep for today, so off to try anything,
Love ya all, keep me in your thoughts. :grouphug:

I know take care of myself because the family needs me,

Think I am plum out of miricles right now.

Dear Di

have been wondering where you are...

i am sorry to hear things are so rough. you are so strong, but even the strongest mountain is eroded by persistent sand winds or water. please take care of yourself too. it does sound like you try to do that.

i pray the SSI comes through for your son.

sending gentle hugs :hug::hug::hug:

waves who seldom drinks Coke and misses ginger ale because they don't sell it here

p.s. it's supposed to be "a Coke and a smile" not a Coke and a good cry... sigh... but whatever works, you probably need the cry. i wonder how many times you force yourself to smile for others, when you are crying inside. you need to release your true emotions. i say, buy yourself a Coke on an exceptional basis... and go with the flow.

Oh thank you for posting. It is good to hear from you. I wish you had better news for your family. You are working with a lawyer for the appeals right? I am sorry this was denied again usually lawyers can make it work, maybe you need a new lawyer? I don't know. If your new job interferes with your ssi would it be more than you would lose? Just take that into consideration.
You are such a strong woman, and are holding your family together as much as possible. You are a blessing. Remember that.
I am sorry to hear that you are in pain and that your son is too.
Hate that.
take care and I have to take klonipin to sleep though it doesn't keep me asleep sometimes like last night, only slept a few hours, i ate and drank too much before bed.
Bless you di.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi DiMarie
 

I am so sorry you and your family are having such a rough time. The denials by disability and so far no SSI would raise your blood pressure for sure. I am sad that your son was denied.
Try to be good to yourself. My own family issues did a number not only on my BP but with acid reflux. I couldn't calm my stomach down and I wound up with Barrettes esophogus. I know all of it was due to stress. I sure don't know how to make it go away either. That sick feeling in your stomach over stress is real. Maybe bring it to your doc. attention so it doesn't become worse.
I will keep your and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I went through a 4 year battle for benefits. I do know the dissapointment you feel for your son when you know he is disabled. Keep trying. All my best to you, ginnie

http://bestsmileys.com/magic/2.gifDear Di,
I am sorry to hear that yourson is in pain. I wish he could get relief.
Keep taking care of yourself. Yes, Take the Lexapro in small doses for a while. And let the doc know about the BP.


'Sending you lots of good energy along with hopes for miracles.


M

Thank you wonderful friends, just needed to hear some encouraging words and share off my chest.
Bizi, after the first two refusals we did get the attorney. I just can't believe it is due to his younger age the denials. Then the judge insist he can do security. Wish I had been able to share with the judge how he tries and his body fails him.
Kid has the biggest heart in the world, nothing he cannot fix or repair, but hate to see his pain.

Then on top of it , his estranged wife bought my car when I got the newer one. She has not had the money for payments to me, as long as she keeps the insurance paid, I was willing to do barter for housework. Tonight she tells me she missed a Nov. insurance payment and the state wants the tags bag with a 90 day suspension.

I told her, it was so much easier to fix it when she did not have the money, even if she suspended that month, then to pay late and have it suspended. I will not put it back in my name for her to drive, so the deadline to appeal is Wed. I have to see if legal aid can help her appeal since she did catch it all up and it was current.

Last thing I need to do is take dgs back and forth to his mom for visits. SHe needs to move local up here..
Her bipolar has not been managed by meds very well. The hostility and agressivness is controlled since they are apart, but no support system for her excpt us.

On top of everything now dealing with this drama. I warned her if she cannot afford the car and insur, then I will need it back. I am taking care of son and dgs financially, she has to take responsibility for herself.

Ugh, I hope it works out with her having referrals to clean houses while awaiting income to get off the minimal welfare she receives.
Love ya all
di

you are in my thoughts and prayers. maybe a miracle will happen. they happen when you least expect it and you have no hope left. i believe that when the great unknown gives us more than we can bear(I believe that) then help comes expectedly. right now it is so important for you to try to take care of yourself. you are making so many sacrifices and you only have a human body. you have to take better care of yourself and let go of some things and not do what you want to do but focus on caring for yourself. your self of responsibility is overwhelming...except towards your own well being.
take care please
bobby

DiMarie

Good luck with all the problems. I would just let the mom, figure out her
own problems too.

donna:grouphug::hug:

Dear Donna,

i am hearing that the mom's issues are tied up in Di's scope of problems too, unfortunately ... with the tight economic situation that car is a valuable asset and needs to be put to good use:

Dear Di,

I really hope this young woman can get herself taken care of, and manage the car and help with her own kid for her share... it sucks that so much of the burden is on you. Perhaps that is what Donna was driving at... lol bad choice of words... driving.

and that said you are a very precious mother. your kids are so lucky to have you. :circlelove:

waves

I am so very sorry.:(:hug::hug::hug: