Dark days, but Im back
 

Hi dear friends,

I feel like Im a bad friend, please please forgive me... I have been thinking about you all all these days, just hadnt post... :(

My eyes were sick... I mean, more than usually...

Today finally, I went to see my doc... According to him, it is not an infection, it is "just" an allergy... and gave me cortisone drops which are making me see "funny"... :rolleyes:

I have been depressed... My cells are not cooperating so my project is in "stand by" which stress me and make me so sad because I feel like I have failed as a friend, as a woman and now as a student... :( :(

Also, my cousin's wedding is coming in less than 2 weeks and this makes me so sad... I mean, nostalgic or whatever... :(

And oh my God, the last strike was that, this silly girl, the one I thought was my "only" "friend" at the lab, was so rude to me.... dont know if you remember her... the one that left 9 months to live in Canada... I think I told you when she was leaving, I bought her a present and stuff but she told me it was very stupid of my part to miss her... :rolleyes: Anyway, she is living in Canada and the other day she sent me a scrapbook and 2 postcards that took ages to arrive home... I dont know what she was expecting but it seems to me that she thought I was going to get impressed or something... I thanked her as soon as I got it and post pics on facebook etc... That same day I sent her a book, a cooking book because she likes that... I checked today, and she got it yesterday... She has been posting stuff, so she has been online and I dont know what is she pretending, but havent told me anything...

I feel sooooo offended... sad.... and why not say it: MAD. I mean, why so rude !?

I unfollowed her on twitter and posted some rant words... indirectly, I know it is not the best option, but I didnt want to fight directly with her...

I want to block her on facebook too, but dont know... dont want to make things bigger... I hate to make things more difficiult all the time but I Cant help it :( :mad: She will be back in august or something like that and... ugh...

I cant track who signed for the package, just can see it arrive to her house... and, to be honest, I doubt her roomie would take it or something because or boss sent her a big package and nothing bad happened... this was a book... to be honest, nobody would steal that :o

I dont know... ugh...

Please please forgive my rant and my always dark posts :(

HI blue,
Thank you for posting.
I wish you were feeling better stronger. I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with asking her if she got your book? maybe she did not get it?
I don't know.
I am sorry that your eyes have been acting up, are you supposed to use the eyes drops on going or for just a short bit of time?
It is too bad that your cells are not cooperating...I wish they would so you can get on with your work.
many hugs to you tonight:
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Thanks for being here Bizi...

I dont know Bizi... she has acted weird and ruse in the past... so, I dont know what to do... argh... hate this.

I have to use the drops the next 8 days and then stop... Hope he was right !!!

How are you ? I send you hugs !

I started a new diet on feb 13th...We had so much fun for mardi gras...don't remember a lot of it....so have been good every day except that day. and now I have given up alcohol for lent, not catholic but hey.
I did not make it to the gym tonight feel bad about that will go tomorrow.
(((((HUGS)))))back at cha!
bizi

Ah ! MArdi Gras !!! gosh I love LA !!!

Yeah... there is always tomorrow !!! :) :hug:

Sweety,........................................... ...................................
 

You couldn't be a *sweeter* friend!!!:)
((((((((((((BlueMajo)))))))))))) :)

Dear Majo,

Here are some hugs :hug: :hug: :hug:


M

I am sorry we did not get to chat last night. You sounded as though you really needed to . I hope you can take this a day at a time.
Are you having to go to that wedding? You can always say you are not feeling well and not go.
wish we could have chatted.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Im afraid I have to go to the wedding.... Im so depressed... I HATE weddings because it has always been my dream to have my own :Sob::Sob::Sob::Sob: And now Im sure that is never gonna happen....

And to make things worse, I CANT stop thinking about the silly gift incident.... ugh

no that you are not alone in obcessions...it is part of being bipolar.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi