The Two Year update...
 

Hi All,

It has been awhile since I've logged in, I've been busy trying to help myself lol! I wanted to update everyone, and I do have positive things to share :)

Sadly, I still have NOT received ANY treatment for my Mtbi as of this post. My Atty. and the Atty. for the comp carrier's insurance continue to "duke it out" during hearing after hearing. I am currently undergoing a SECOND round of Neuropsychological testing as requested by the carrier. And interestingly enough, I am "aware" of my deficits as I experience the same difficulty in the same areas of testing that I did prior.

If all stays on track (which it rarely does), I should be testifying in a formal hearing in October in front of the WC Commissioner. I am VERY excited for this opportunity for my voice to finally be heard. It's not gonna be pretty, but it's definitely necessary.

I have more good days than bad days now, which is a blessing. I've taken advantage of the good days and engaged in running! As most of you know, I gave up smoking and began exercising. I took it up a notch and began to run and I haven't stopped!! I can't explain it, but even when I have the overall dull heavy headache, running lightens it (maybe it makes me forget about it for a while). I've competed in a 5k and have several more scheduled :) It is my chance to feel productive without needing to think, converse or concentrate...just me and the outdoors. It's my "therapy".

I'm still unemployed as I've yet to receive treatment, no MD will release me to return to the work force.

My moods. Hm. I think that I'm not as quick to anger as before and am able to deal with some stress, although I think I tend to walk away from experiences that have the opportunity to be stressful. That in itself shows improvement for me.

My wish remains the same. I know I have deficits, I just want help in dealing with them. I want to go back to work, and I want to work as an RN Case Manager. In my heart and soul, I still pray that it's possible.

Of all that I may have lost, I still have hope. That's for keeps. :D

Thank you
 

Fairlly new to this forum but with every positive I hear, lifts me up alittle. I feel so bad most of the time I struggle to stay positive.