My Shell...
 

It's been quite some time now,
Five years, more or less.
Since illness first struck me,
And I must confess

That often I wonder
If any people still see
Inside this changed body
There is still the same me.

I've tried so hard
To describe and explain,
But all of those efforts
Seem to have been in vain.

I live in the shadows
Where no one can see
More than the barest
Outline of me.

And for a long time now
I have fought this hell
By hiding my feelings
Inside of a shell.

I make the shell stronger
With each passing day,
Hoping it might keep
Some bad things away.

I've let it grow round me
Only to find
That as it gets thicker
I become more blind.

This shell serves no purpose,
For I must confess
It does not protect me,
Or make me hurt less.

So what would it matter
If everyone should see
This shell of mine shatter,
And expose the real me?

Would they see that inside
I am still the same man,
Struggling daily
The best that I can?

To live my life bravely
In spite of my fears,
And be seen as a good man
By all of my peers?

I suppose it's a gamble
That I must decide
By staying inside here
Or stepping outside.

It may sound quite simple,
And perhaps it should be;
But I'm afraid that it isn't,
At least not for me...

That is heartfelt and beautiful. I completely connected to your thoughts

God bless you :hug:

I will agree with shelley, that was toucning.

There are times when I have thought to myself, expecially in my teenage years, why can they just see who I really am.

Darlene:hug:

Nice work visitor.
Thanks for sharing . A shell is just a shell it is whats inside that make the shell so special and perfect... I meen a poka dot drop of a shell ..cannot fly unless the ladybug is inside... if ya get what i meen?!! Sea shells are special from what is inside and all that surrounds them that mark the shell and smooth it and color it. I think we all have a shell tho, and relate to your words. Thanks for comin out of shell and sharing!Love it!!!!
:hug: to you Visitor.
BMW

That is a very beautiful poem Visitor. I am not a lover of poetry, but that poem really touched me. I hope your life will become brighter and you find the courage to crack your shell. I too hide myself from the world, not because of my disease, but have always been that way. I don't like being like that, wish I was more open, but just don't know how to do it. :( My family only knows the real me, thankfully I have them in my life. Take Care Visitor.:) PS You sound like a person very worth knowing, I am sure many would love to see the real you.

It seems you have a gift!
I hope you continue to share your poetry with us!
Awesome stuff!;)
Kell

You reach out and touched some hearts today,
please come back and do it again :) Sue

hey visitor... nice job here..very touching and true..stay strong and keep on writing..--moonstar ;)

I want to thank you all for the kind words and appraisals. :)

I didn't really consider this one of my better works, because even while writing it I became confused, and it was hard to keep my focus. But I'm glad that some people seemed to like it. Thanks again! :)

Visitor

.....I would like to see the beautiful butterfly hatched out of this shell...:hug:

........strong, free, spirit...dancing in the light of found truth...

profound ~