Back again with a question
 

It's been quite a while since I posted here. Just a recap, I first thought I had post-concussion syndrome back in January last year after hitting my head while drunk and running, and feeling depersonalized a few days after with no signs of getting better for months. I eventually went back to school for the summer, got a job, and completely forgot about my worries. I started socializing with people, and was a part of society again. I didn't feel completely back to normal, but I was about 70% there if I were to put a number on it, and I'm sure I would've hit 100 with given time. I was also working out a lot, and I'm sure that played a part in it. Contrary to what some people on this forum suggested, I did party quite a bit from time to time, and alcohol brought no relapses whatsoever. I did have another concussion, which was A LOT worse than my previous one that I thought was the cause of my symptoms, and although it's not something to be proud of, it never brought a relapse of symptoms either. After 2 weeks I was out feeling exactly the same way I felt before I had that concussion.

Now, what DID bring me back to where I was before was extreme anxiety, which started after I stopped going to the gym for a while. I started thinking about trivial things, and that everyone was better than me, and there's something wrong with me, etc. etc. This eventually brought me right back to where I started. Now I'm on day 5 of exercising again, and am slowly noticing a few improvements, except I can't get this anxiety out of my head yet...

Now, my only "symptom", which actually has enough of its own symptoms, is depersonalization. My mind's in a fog, I don't have an internal dialogue going on in my brain, and my body/mind are on autopilot. The only time I get headaches is when I stress myself out with thoughts like: "Wow what if I'm brain damaged? / What if my life is over? / I'm never going to be happy...", and from my understanding, any stress can create a headache for anyone.

Also, after researching depersonalization, I found that Wikipedia states: "One cognitive behavioral conceptualization is that misinterpreting normally transient dissociative symptoms as an indication of severe mental illness or neurological impairment leads to the development of the chronic disorder. This leads to a vicious cycle of heightened anxiety and symptoms of depersonalization and derealization": This is exactly what I did, after I noticed a difference in how I thought last January, I started researching, found info on PCS, and started worrying if I would ever recover. And one thing I forgot to mention was that this all started after one of the most stressful months of my life as well, I had never been that down at any other point in my life(it was on the very last day of living in that situation that I hit my head).

So I guess what I'm asking is: Is it likely that I never even had PCS, or if I did, the only symptoms that remained after a certain period of time were psychological, and created by my anxiety?

Oh, and one more thing, no matter how much I exercise, I don't get a headache or dizziness/nausea... I might feel a little more foggy, but that usually subsides and feels slightly better than before a few hours later/the next day

Sounds to me like you last comment is likely you struggle. Anxiety can cause a myriad of strange symptoms. It sounds like you are demanding too much of yourself.

Maybe some counseling will help you settle your thoughts.

That actually sounds like a good idea(the counselling). Is there a way I can get the PCS idea completely out of my head? Like any certain way to know whether or not I have PCS or am just depressed and depersonalized?

Actually, the one thing that scares the hell out of me is Wikipedia's description of dysexecutive syndrome/frontal lobe disorder, because it describes my symptoms(then again... So does depersonalization/depression). And based on the physics of the fall, my frontal lobe is what would've taken the impact. So I really need to get that idea out of my head as well...

So can I have PCS or even brain damage from the fall if my only symptoms are anxiety, depression, and sleeping too much(no headaches or dizziness)? I also remember the whole night that it happened, including the moments before I fell and then on. I just don't remember if I felt any different right before I fell and after I fell, but if I did, I didn't notice it at the time(but I was also drunk). I did have a bad headache the next morning, but that could've been a hangover as well.

And I know this might seem very irrational and I'm aware I'm a hypochondriac, but I never worried about this stuff before that happened, and it's really messed up my mind.