Am I a quitter?
 

Find something you like doing I'm told. It just happens that I chose an outrageously expensive sport. I fenced world class athletes a couple of weeks ago and I can only reach that stage if I practice several hours a day more than once a week. Of course most of my opponents were 1/2 my age.

I hate doing things at which I am no good. I almost hope my doctor tells me I'll hurt myself more if I keep fencing.

I just don’t feel like even fencing locally. I’m so tired by the end of the day it’s hard to drag myself to the club to fence. I like the people but I hate being humiliated all the time in a tournament. There’s a player alumni day at my old University and I could either attend that or go be humiliated in Reno and Richmond in March and April. I’m just tired.

It's just getting so hard to schlep myself to practice, it costs about $1,000 a weekend for a tournament, (I still can't find a sponsor.) I think the only reason I still do it is because I've got so much money wrapped up in equipment. On one hand I want to quit and on the other I don't.

Of course I was looking at some job advertisements yesterday and they are never going to hire me. I’m not going to work again. I’m turning into that guy I was afraid of becoming. Just growing old and fat. I have to have a reason to get out of bed.

I don't want to be seen as a quitter, I never have, but it seems like a good option.

Hi!
 

You aren't a 'quitter'. If you've grown weary of your sport, you can always switch gears and go in another direction. That certainly does not make you a quitter. You can say you are 'retiring' from fencing and move on to something else. It sounds like it is taking too much out of you physically, which may not be good for you.

In reading this part of your post, it appears that you may be 'quitting' on yourself as a person. Why do you think that no one would hire you? Give yourself some credit and try to keep your dignity (I'm lovingly nagging at you and this is what I need to hear as well! :o) I'm losing my job of 30 years and I think the same things sometimes....."who would want to hire this aging ol' lady?? I'm having a hard time with this aging process also, especially because I see myself becoming more and more disabled physically (and mentally :rolleyes:)

The world isn't gonna give up on us. Only 'WE' can give up on us.
Yes?

Caring,
Rae
:grouphug:

It just seems giving up would be a lot easier. For whom am I trying to improve? No one will hire what they percieve to be an idiot (strokes) who is over 50.

hugs
 

quiting? mmm it might be easier but it does sound like your a man that has ever done that so Dont start now.... if you are not enjoyiing fencing then move on find your new passion in life it is time for you to not worrie about what people think of you, but more important do due what makes you want to get up every morning. i know that it is way easier to say then do but ill keep you in my prayers. an you will only become that old guy that you dont want to be if you allow your self to think that :hug:

Hey SD == you need to put the shape your spine is in, in your signature line too. People don't know that your spine is in shambles when they respond to you!

You'd get better and more truthful answers if they knew about your spinal condition. Let them know!!! ;)