Today Might Be That Day (Inpatient)
 

Anger HAS TAKEN OVER!!!I get in a MVA in 2011 And I am just now getting a COSTLY:eek: diagnosis in Nov OF TBI/PCS from going to a level that has turned on me and seems pretty **** worthless for me....I am left to do ALL MY WORK TO GET TO MD'S I NEED,REHABILITATION THAT I NEED,GET MYSELF BETTER,TRY TO TAKE CARE OF HOME, GO BROKE AND NO FUNDS TO GET THE REHABILITATION!!!!I AM PRETTY MUCH CORNERED AGAIN IN SAME SITUATION AS BEFORE BUT I GOT A DIAGNOSIS!!!!POINT IS I AM TIRED!!!:mad:

I am in the same boat.

Since 7/2012 my pcs, ptsd, convergence insufficiency, bppv and all felt like it was a manageable and slow process of recovery. I am reeling after getting a virus/flu/crud that has had me out for a week. I watch my husband run himself tired caring for our 3 boys and going to work. I feel humiliated, sad, and worried. And awful physically.

It is hard to stay positive and focused on each moment, doing what we must for ourselves to rest/recuperate and hoping for the good brain days.

I have found a lot of grace and solace from everyone here. It really is about staying in the moment (not racing to the past in anger or running from the future in fear), just doing what you can to bring relief, peace, and calm to yourself.

It can be so simple and so complicated to do so, but I think it is essential.

I hope you find some moments of calm today!

Thank you so much for the response Berkeley.I got the same advice yesterday from my pshyc about staying in the moment!Don't look back or ahead....just stay in the moment.So as Im spazzing out on poor guy the phone rings...the call I needed for cognitive therapy!were both smiling and I have state coming to my house @10am today for assessment :D I sent apologize to all the MDs & people I spazzed out on.....but this is a prime example why I need this therapy besides my impairments:wink: I apologies to this group for the negativity...I have been trying really hard to stay positive lately but we all know how frustrating this can be!:grouphug:

I'm glad to hear that you found an opening to focus on being good to yourself.

I think we all feel your anger. This is a very hard and frustrating process. The money and time are important material constraints, but until you heal, there can be no work. So it really is important to feel everything (anger to pity to hopelessness to fear) and then to return to a place of being kind to yourself.

Each journey begins with one step....(some Chinese saying) and reminds me that we all need to begin somewhere.

Oh girl, we've ALL been there! Don't be sorry. And even a "typical" person would be angry with have to fight all the red tape!

My boyfriend works for a major insurance company. When I had my accident, and realized that I would have to make multiple, long phone calls a day fighting for services (and then calling people and begging someone to find time to take me to various appointments since I couldn't drive), I began to get really really upset. I told him that since the other party's insurance would have had to cover a rental, they should instead cover a chauffer and a secretary. I swear if I had had either of those opportunities, and could have just focused on rest and my rehab, I would have been better so much faster.

Now, even with a lot of my rehab work done and trying to get back to my life, I still have to spend hours each week making phone calls. This week was a fight to get a medication authorized that I've been taking for almost 2 years because of my injury, that the insurance company just randomally decided not to cover anymore. Thank God, it seems after 6 weeks of phone calls I've finally got it taken care of. But there are many others that see my doctor who haven't been so lucky.

Its so exhausting to fight the red tape, when you don't have the energy to do even the most basic things. And what's worse is once you make the calls, you are so anxious and stressed, at least for me, you are done for the rest of the day.

You are not alone! I am glad you were able to get your assessment appointment. Let us know how it went! ((hugs))

Smilin~You sure can relate!!!I am stuck in a "medical web"that's why state is even in place.The meeting went great and the lady was great and she said under her assessment I qualify!:D Now it just needs to move on to State whoever and I will then find out. It blows that I had to wait a month and many follow up calls to cognitive therapy to find out I was in this "medical web"payment blahhh.

I see how they would like me to take this break to do all the work to get rehabilitation lol.I see it is a blessing in disguise and to make me stronger for future!It is sad though because you could lose strength a lot faster than keep strenght...I had to stay strong after a year of fighting for diagnosis...I had no choice but to keep staying strong!Oh well if I yelled and cursed on the way!I MADE IT!!!:hug: