this is just a place to vent
 

dear God
my Brother Jesus
my Mother

thank you for yet another day

there is a beautiful place
a place of soothing
sweet sound of Love

through a dear sweet friend
not having very good sleep
thinking of all the added stress
i have to endure
where to put it
i don't have any
room in my being
to the point of not wanting
to move on any more
i cannot corrupt
Focus on Blessings2
that is a place to be
thankful in all
and not ***** all
so much
my pain is pretty darn
bad right now
i wish i could have
the hardware taken out
it hurts so badly
my shoulders feel so bruised
the weight is heavy
be it my Cross
i carry it with Honor
with the weather rain rain
all needed rain
i get the feeling
the Almighty is speaking
as natural disasters along
with human brutality
the non compliance
the fact that Navada
fire, water, air, earthquakes
and we just keep pushing
without the consequences
i think not
lets look at Apple's
latest gadget that should
have been a thought in the beginning
but oh no lets get the phone to be worthless
to the robber
it is televised
here in the TRI-STATE
the therm used among the ones who
steal the products call it "apple pickin"
now political persons among several
states collectively will talk about
this disabling the phone
only good with the new phones
bull turd

so i have decided to take Corissa's
father to court
and return the way payment is made
should have never relieved him or
had him removed from the system

i was the fool
no one else
he just got what he wanted
not if i have anything to do with it
be it my duty to the rest of the unfortunate
as all my life it be difficult because of the
non compliance and am done

when has any President
or any running mate
ever in my life time
cleaned up the child support
system
MAKE NO MISTAKE
THERE IS A SYSTEM
IT IS A MATTER OF GETTING
WORKERS SITTING ON THEIR HANDS
MY LIFE
MY LIFE
oh how difficult it was raising
4 children by myself
now financial aid
again MY CASE WITH MY
EX-HUSBAND SET PRESIDENT
GENERAL MOTORS
oh the things i have been through
i wonder what kind of book would
it be

now moving in here
put laminate flooring down
and bingo
water infiltration
destroyed
and because wind driven
rain is the issue and i didn't
do the painting
for i would have seen the
window frame has come away
from the building
therefore i can see directly outside

my insurance agent
after paying for renters insurance
ever since i have been on my own
he said that,
because i was in the efficiency
had floors put down
and 4 floors above me
a pipe burst
to no submit
they are to close together
i could be dropped
i was mortified
been paying since i was 20's
to have it if
anyone hurts themselves
or worse yet a fire
this is a rip off in the end
of course i won't give up the
insurance
suggested to speak to the owner
management knows for almost a week
the super a week already
so i ask anyone who would like to chime in
i'm a smart cookie
with always something to learn
in this particular case is it FAIR
to say

one week lead time for a super or any maintenance
to show up to the apartment ?????
to respond to my call of the water infiltration

i just came from a brand new building being
built in my home town forced to move out into another town
my Mayor in my old home town and will forever
remain the same my Mayor is my boss
now the Mayor of this town is at war with my boss
and known him since he too was a little tike
his mother and father superintendents for the
same owner
both pretty much equal in apartments
for my parents 32 family
pristine on a rock as Hoboken is more under
water then not
my pain specialist who's business
is in that area flooded when we were hit
by SANDY
well it is Friday
the phone ringing off the hook since
7:00 this morning Christine is having a melt down
so sister and sister are together as they only
live about 15 blocks from each other in my old home town
the baby is with me and my daughter
who lives with mommy she is only 15teen
that teenage age
but mamma is here
you can always count on mommy
that is just the way it is
they need me
dear Brother
your Father has shown
himself to me by answering prayers
that only he and i know of
never saying a word to anyone
make no mistake I me Eva has
no doubt as FAITH is empowered by belief
and I SHOUT IT FROM THE HIGHEST MOUNTAIN
I BELIEVE
might i please put in prayer
you continue to carry me until
i gather up the time and truth
as i take Corissa's father to court
left a message
requesting several things
that i would like child support
in a money order
and all other submission
i will send him for 1/2 of
uniform, her very much need computer,
nothing special this one has exceeded its
warranty so therefore because it has been
taken care of it can be upgraded
i have always provided medical insurance
by working and hope to one day return
as my job is there
then there is her phone something
he has yet to have her phone repaired
i wish he never introduced her to a new
phone
surprised her with it
took all my planned
use of what i believe would have
taught her responsibility
a phone that needs to be topped up
with money purchase the card she chooses
to
and with what money you might be thinking
her allowance money by taking out the garbage every day
well that was very short lived and took that very much
needed lesson in life
he changed all that
and because his other children
i think it's 5 one not by him but
because the wife from the DOMINIC REPUBLIC
after his previous wife deceased breast cancer
went to the brain
point
this piece of turd
can afford to pay a hell
of a lot more and
i will be in the position
standing in the truth
my LORD
holding me up
as the truth comes
after all he never complied
to the request of the two year
return
and only paid minimum
so any suggestions?
as i pray hep me dear God
show me what to do

it is that
SOMEONE WHO CARES

WITH MUCH LOVE TO ALL
i did not do this to be mean Spirited
in anyway
But, to learn and understand
all diplomatically done
this is just a place to vent

Dear Eva,
You've been through so much. I'm praying for you and wishing for an angel
to comfort you in your troubles. :hug:

Prayers
 

And more prayers

you go girl
 

We all need to vent...great job Eva...get it out. All part of processing.

Here is your safe space...no judgements; no need to explain...lots of compassion...people that still listen...a place to let your guard down.

I suppose I am just saying what this board is for me along with all the great information.

don't keep it inside ...we are here for ya
Johanna

dear friend

thank you for the encouragement
you provide me with
it does not fall on deaf ears
use it
may i be a support
in anyway i can
much love in
return

someone who cares

lays heavy on my heart
 

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
dearest of all

my heart is heavy
as today we gather as a family
at my Christine's apartment
a wondrous thing
it is fathers day
AND I AM ONLY REMINDED
you would think that after
ALL these years my ex-husband
coasted into whatever don't know
but i'm reminded of having
to pick up his slack
and i did
not only non-existent
but never complied to
the simple divorce
to pay child support
and provide insurance
he at the time was a
GENERAL MOTORS
man on the line
welder
horrible what happened
it did not have to be that way

and now
all i need to do is get the
justice for yet another child
why is it
i misjudged his word
it was on a trust basis
he requested me to relieve
him from court
my mistake for trusting
the picture is clearer
and clearer each situation
that arises with him
and although she is 15teen
the damage has already been done
now
going back to court
he will be exposed to the
truth of the facts since
she was born and need
blood on reserve as she
is sickle cell trait a let
down from father make
so to the point

my floors in the condition they are in
THE TYPED ITEMIZED
BILL HE WROTE UP
ARE LIES LIES AND MORE LIES
IT HAS NO LICENSE # AS A DOCUMENTED
CONTRACTOR

all the work done was in cash
his request $1,300.00 IN LABOR
SPECIFIED HE GIVES $100.00 IN
CASH EACH FOR ALL THREE WORKERS
HE HAD WITH HIM
he claims he did $1,800.00 in labor
in addition states the flooring goes
into the closets not true
they were put in the closets
in the previous apartment
and i have learned much
with deceitful persons
the devil workers real hard for
them

i ask for any opinions out there

i will always be looked
upon as someone red flagged
this includes my job
here in this building
my doctor who threw
me to the curb
and did nothing but
bill me

back to my heavy heart
i do want to report this kind
of business transaction
he claimed he was always
on the up and up
this i question
since he let loose
i have all my receipts
for all materials to
do the floors and partial paint
i only was missing his bill
and the receipt i paid credit card
i was there a huge warehouse
he was the last one with it
as he needed it for p/u
at the specified platform
never handed it to me
and when i asked him for the
bill for insurance purposes
that's when he snapped
i could have called myself
but as my daughter not
Corissa
"THAT'S WHAT FAX MACHINES
ARE FOR"
BINGO
HE GOT A COPY FROM
THE COMPANY IN LESS
THAN A 1/2 HOUR


now Corissa has done without any extras
except her phone
and that enticed her
exposed to what his children
her sisters have and the trips
that are taken twice a year
2 months in the summer and
1 1/2 months in the winter
his children driven to school
and picked up by him most
times or wife
Corissa was driven to school by me
since kindergarten to 7th grade
i became ill then it all changed
the day i thought i had a stiff neck

i was about to write earlier
how is it both the men i had
children
the only good thing they will
ever have given me
both hoping they would get a
to grow a see it is not about them
they were angry at me for not
submitting myself to them
i LOVE MY CHILDREN TO MUCH
but should i let him to proceed
to pay the minimum
not take him to court
for there is where all the truth
will come out
as he was asked some 15teen
years ago to bring in his two
year tax returns
does anyone get the picture
as i haven't done anything wrong
but stupidly giving others the
benefit of the doubt
shame on me

someone who cares

Trust MUST be EARNED
 

Dear One Who Cares-

I am so glad you have been there for your children in the dual parent role as the man you married was without substance to either his vows or his word. Would that one could "throw him under a bus" but he will be sorted out in all good time when he meets his maker. I think I do not want to be there for that conversation.....

The garbage "word is worthless" contractor..... well, this is PRECISELY why I do not trust contractors. Even most recently, the HVAC technician who came highly recommended proved not to be trustworthy. Thus, I am pretty good about having contractors sign off to agreements for work to be performed, price to be paid, insurance they must carry, and release of LIEN rights [regarding properties people own as opposed to renting]. Lastly, pay the person WHEN work complete, bills PAID, workers paid, Lien Waiver in hand.... then they have earned our hard earned money... BUT NEVER CASHOLA, NEVER CASH..... why, because one has the harder time proving payment with cash- as there is lack of documentation.

NOW----- Search Angie's List, a place where people REVIEW all sorts of contractors and handypeople. Drop an A Bomb on the list regarding your flake contractor and help forewarn others before they are the recipients of such foul treatment.

I so do pray the medical issues for Corissa are resolved to the good. If you are going to court this time again regarding father's dilatory care of his flesh and blood, think about NOT cutting Him any slack..... unless that cut job goes a bit lower than you might have originally contemplated. :D He could probably do with a little slack in that department. Take his pinky feet and hold them to the fire on the behalf of your dear child. I well and truly hope and pray you have counsel for this matter.

Keeping you in my prayers. :hug: :hug: :hug:

to court it is
 

my dear friend

your words ring
truth in my ears
the courts here in
this county need so
badly to do the work
they are assigned

why
because i know
never did i let my ex
get away with it
when ever i got word
i forwarded it to the
person in charge

as what is called a domino effect
the same goes with a system
a very long one but it's there

oh my friend
i just stopped for a moment
and realized who very much
i have been through
i have been fighting for
persons to do the right thing
do their job as it slows the
process or even halt it by
not doing anything
and the children
when divorced
i asked for nothing
for myself
just the children
that's right
no alimony
i was with council
for my divorce
did zip for my children

then there was G.M.
that never did as judge
ordered wage garnishment
zip for my children no insurance
persons sat on their hands
but i am who i am
a fighter for the underdog
in my case i have had council
3 times regarding this same issue
i learned an awful lot

i have done fairly well
when representing myself
with all the proof i have
a heck of a file

i just came from a new building
that was basically inhabitable
the owner threw in the towel
i broke him down

dear friend
i had municipal
and county
state
involved 10 years
but Judge Oliveri
caught him in many lies
for evidence and pictures
many other factors of proof
mostly correspondences
i think you get the picture

i am in good standing
have proof as Corissa's
father always paid through
the probation department
my mistake for relieving
him of probation department
now to put him back on it
allows me to open up
many cans of worms
but not at Corissa's expense
and will not treat her as he is

you support and understanding
is appreciated
naive maybe at first
trusting i wouldn't get ripped of
in that manner and behave
as he did no more

precious advice and what
a lift and a good awakening

i am so hurting helping
Christine
Sara was there
cut her hair
Corissa talking with big
sis
it was great
my hands are killing me
not to mention tired
Sara and hubby dropped
Christine at hospital
she is having a sleep test
done

so i will try and turn in
oh how everything hurts

so much i need and want to say
tomorrow
Eva is with us

may i again say
your words mean
what i feel

to continue

someone who cares

Prayin
 

That today is a BETTER BETTER, maybe even SUPER day for you Eva my Friend!

Uh huh, :hug: :hug: :hug: