July 2,2013 8:30 am The Big Show and The Needle
 

ok , Wednesday I had a tiny filling done , no Novocain , and I was a calm as all can be , and it went great , it was actually fun , I felt all grown up , like a big girl , no fear , and then the good news came when he said no root canal ( that was not an option and no way was it going to happen if it needed a root canal ) and also my fear was the needle , I told him how a shot in the roof of my mouth is freeking me out , he again said , I don't do that , only if it's an extraction ,, again I felt relived and happy , as I went home I was so excited about the up coming crown , that excitement did not last , I am back to square one , the Novocain needle has me shaking like a leaf to the point I am thinking about forgetting this whole thing , I have a script from another dentist for Diazepam 5mg , I tried one out to see if it would calm me down and it did not do a thing and my Oral Surgeon gave me a scritp for hydrocodone/acetaminophen 7.5.375 , now that seemed to calm me down and I felt like a hippy but I didn't like the feeling of being druged out , I never have taken a drug or meds before , maybe if I take 2 of the diazepam before I go ,, I am so confused here , my hope is that the needle is not as bad as my mind thinks it is , cause I am having more work done , or want more work done , and that means 5 more needles but at the same time I am at the point I could say forget the whole thing , but I cant do that , talk about stuck between a rock and a hard place ,,,,,,,,,,, will a needle win and I walk away , the panic is really kicking in full steam

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The Needle ---- The funny thing is i have no idea how this Dentist got me in the chair , i don't know how this happened , for that alone i can call him the Worlds Best Dentist , me in a dentist chair i am so beyond blown away ,, the first tiny filling i was crying like a baby , didn't feel a thing , second tiny filling , no crying but shaking , then the cleaning , calm as can be (amazing) third tiny and last tiny filling dead calm and enjoyed it , logic says it would be a total shame to come this far and let a needle ruin what would end up giving me a total Killer smile and great teeth , so here is an idea i have ,, stay up all night , don't sleep , take the 2 Diazepam 5mg pills and between that drug and being totally exhausted i wont care if he stuck me with a horse needle , now that is a pipe dream if i ever heard one ,,,, anyway sorry for all this silly posts and your responding back has been great , i know there are people truly suffering with major medical issues and are in great pain , and to know this is happening to little children and baby's breaks my heart and i sit here and feel guilty over my fear of a stupid needle while there are so many in so much pain and heart break , now that alone should have me overcome this fear , but it is my fear and my god it sure has a hold on me i can't shake , and i hope that after the first needle i will say , wow , all this worry for a tiny pinch , or my worse fear that it freeks me out so bad i don't finish the rest of the work ,,and even my Dentist knows this will be a make or break moment