there's a monster in the house
 

why not a doctor understand
as i have a very good understanding
of my 52 year young body
and because i have found this
place of knowledge it makes absolute
perfect sense i have a period of time
as the puzzle is coming together for me
i cannot omit the possibility that the
evidence may show a reason to treat
a person with bouts of depression
i mean for example hormones be the
reason for postpartum depression
and another point i want to bring up
i'm tired of doctors ready to shut you
down as your on to something bigger
i at the moment for several weeks
began noticing the change the female
body is amazing simply for the time
she bleeds once a month and is only
on a even hormonal state referred to
as normal drives me nuts

someone who cares

tired
 

i'm so tired
of doing giving
looking hoping
grasping
broken heart
give give give
i am not me
anymore
to have a life
without a reason
in the end they leave
or are too busy
but when something
is needed all come to mom
the world is changing
and i stay stuck
having terrible accusations
that are not true
to have been betrayed
over and over i am like
an old mule that can't
get it right
so much going on at
one time
i don't know if i'm
coming or going
all my energy is
drained from me
in one way or another
and i'm just sick of it
and yet i must move on
as i am awakened
too much hurt
too much pain
too much lost
too much taken
by evil doers
may my dreams
come true

(((eva))) :grouphug:

thank you dear friend
the cross i must carry
as i pray
forgive me Father
his will be done
many hugs for you in return