I am sick of being sick!
 

I am 5 and a half months and have been feeling really annoyed by this PCS thing lately. I feel like I am losing my sanity although I don't have any symptoms bothering me too much. I am living in a constant fear of hitting my head again and going through it all over again. It's a cluster of feelings like helplessness, anger, fear and despair. I am sick of being sick in these 5 months and it's not much of a life that's left and I am super bored and don't see a way out of this anytime soon. I can't go anywhere because I dread bumps and potholes and they do bother me physically. I am losing patience and on the verge of breaking down anytime soon! My social life is almost zero and I never had any friends before or after the injury. That's the reason this thing has become such a big deal in my life.

I took xanax for a month and have halved my dose since about a week. Is it the withdrawal symptom that's playing a part in this? I am thinking to start moving my body a bit and maybe I will feel better. I don't walk or exercise and this same routine over and over again has demoralised and depressed me.

When I read the title, I thought someone had responded to one of my old threads.

You will get better It sounds like you are getting better. You might have a little withdrawal from the Xanax going on. You will be ok.

5 months is not an incredibly long time in pcs healing time.

Keep telling yourself you are improving and a year from now there is a good chance this will seem like a bad dream.

Go for a walk and I will too. We will both leave the house today and get some fresh air.

The emotions you are feeling are common for pcs. They will go away over time too. I assume you are seeing a doctor since you have Xanax. You can let him know how you feel.

In the meantime, you can think about some of the things you want to do after you are better.

People here understand and are there for you including me.

I think tapering the Xanax could be playing a part in how you are feeling, the symptoms match benzo withdrawal. The stress of the last 5 months could be catching up with you too. I would definitely keep withdrawing off the Xanax and try and do some exercise, walking to start with to get your circulation better and wake up your endorphins. Deep breathing exercises, meditation, listening to music help me calm down. Most of all be kind to yourself, you've come along way and I feel sure once you're med free you'll feel confident again, but it could take a couple more months so hang in there!