Can you believe this????????????????
 

My mom and I were talking yesterday and I was telling her how Dirk is a very neat person, not a slob like my ex. I also said that (which I should not of) that my mom was messy. I said Dirk and I were talking about how I am neat and clean, but he is very organized and how my mom was messy, but it was due to she couldn't do things or see things without her glass's very well when trying to clean up after herself.

Later on, she yelled for me, I went in her room and she said I WANT THIS CLEANED UP - meaning her dinner dish and glass. So I took them to the kitchen into the dishwasher.:mad:

Then she said: When Dirk gets here, I am going to tell him that you are BP and crazy and make up stories.:eek: Then I shot back with, well I am on the phone with him right now, so I guess you just told him.

He didn't hear, because I was on the phone in my bedroom. She doesn't know that though.

I have been having severe migraines EVERYDAY, I think it is because of the fear of a new relationship and getting hurt, and the fear of what may come out of my mom's mouth. :(

It's early here, I have errands to run, then I may or may not speak to her, I need to be ready to talk to her and calm. She says she wants me to be happy, yet she acts differently sometimes.

Hugs, Nikko:grouphug:

reptile just came to mind after reading your post.....snake just entered the picture.....i think your mother beats my mother in sadism.....i am sorry about your migraines.....
don't worry about how it is going to work out with dirk...the I Ching says that if something is meant to be you can't throw it away....
garbage can just came into mind with lid...too bad you can't buy a huge one and stuff her in it when he visits you in the house....only kidding but it did give me a moment's pleasure and I hope it gave you a chuckle..
I guess humor is one avenue of approach. I would tell Dirk that you want him to form his own opinion of your mother since you are a very nice person and only like to say nice things and have nice thoughts...you can tell him that he can ask you anything about your animals.
Don't worry if he finds out you are bipolar II....if he does just ask him if he wants you to explain the symptoms to him and how they are usually controlled by medication. I stress to people IT IS NOT A THOUGHT DISORDER BUT A MOOD DISORDER....
bobby

I am so sorry that your mother is so ugly, she really seems to try to hurt you a lot. I wish she wouldn't displace her anger onto you Nikko. You've got so much to worry about as it is, it's just not fair to have her dumping on you too. :hug:

I agree with Bobby, I would stress it's a MOOD disorder and not a thought disorder. That is IF it comes up, you already posted about whether or not to tell him, but it is something that should be up to YOU not your mother. Hang in there, he'll be back home soon and you can get away from your mother for little outings/dates with him and forget for a time about BP II and your mother. :hug:

Snake is right!!!!! :mad: He is very easy going and knows that I suffer from depression and anxiety and take medication. I also thought of the mood disorder, since that is what they call BP now. If the time comes that I feel is right to tell him.

I am just furious right now. How dare she even try to treat me like this, and make me afraid of what she may say, after all I do for her.

I swear when my lease is up next April, it is over. If she gets much worse, then I will get a Drs letter and get out of this lease.

I refuse to live like this anymore, and be treated in this manner.

Nikko:(

Dirk thinks my mom is nice. He thinks I need a break for sure though.

He say's well ya know she had a stroke, seizures, heart attack, surgery and been through so much. See, he has NO IDEA how she can be.

I have to tell him how she can be. She does have some dementia, so at least he will be aware.

She thinks I was airing our dirty laundry by saying she is messy. It was just talk, it wasn't a big deal. I guess I was wrong, but he is going to see how she is, so I wanted him to know.

I can't win.................................grrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Earlier in the day, when I had a migraine, she said it was from PTSD, now she is a Dr. too.


Nikko

unbelievable!!!!!!
what will she do next...
i am sorry that she iso cruel to you....
hugd bizi

Well, Nikko he has accepted you for your depression and anxiety and that you take meds for both. I think that his learning you have BP won't be too shocking for him. I have all three as well and my husband accepts me for who I am. It's hard to believe I know but people can be nice.
Got any duct tape? Maybe that will quiet your mom until you are ready to announce you have BP!:D

He just called me, he just got out of Michigan and into Ohio, so he is on his way...........................Looks like sometime on Friday he will be here, depending on traffic, construction and things like that.

He hopes to beat rush hour in the major cities he has to go through.

YIPPEE:D

I will have a talk with mommy dearest later, after my errands.:confused:

Hugs, Nikko:grouphug:

Sorry for her badmouthing, yelling, etc.

JUST CONSIDER THE SOURCE ;)

I still vote for the duct tape!:D