colectomy surgery soon and petrified
 

i am petrified.

i am scheduled to have a colectomy mid-October.

i had a VERY BAD reaction to anesthesia last summer, and that was anesthesia-lite...the kind you would use for a colonoscopy which most people can tolerate quite well...

this is full blown, general anesthesia...

as if that is not enough, this major surgery is excruciating with a long recovery for healthy people.

my head has not stopped hurting in 2+ years since i was hurt, and the anesthesia given to me made me worse overall and i am not even close to feeling the same since.

i have no choice. i have been hospitalized twice with severe complicated diverticulitis and i am lucky to have avoided emergency surgery...at least i get two months to worry about it...

has anyone else had a major surgery after mild traumatic brain injury with serious migraine problems?

i cannot imagine what my dysfunctional brain will be like when this is done.

2 neuropsych tests shows >1% percentile in cognitive processing speed and in memory deficits...

i have bilateral occiputal neuralgia and worsening trigeminal nerve pain...nerve ablations have helped recently, but they wear off eventually...

my eyes hurt when i move them and each day i wake up with a headache that only gets worse...

on top of that, i may need yet another surgery to decompress nerves or for a rhyzotomy or four...

there is even more to it all than just this...what a mess...

how am i going to make it through this?

oh God, help me please.