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Wonder Thread 294
I wonder when the county is going to come suck up our leaves...we've raked the same leaves to the road three times, only to have the wind blow them back in the yard...I should name them!! :mad:
I wonder if we will get the predicted accumulating snow this week end. I wonder if I should put the rest of the outdoor furniture in the barn. :cool: I wonder if someone asks you what you'd like for Thanksgiving dinner instead of the traditional turkey, stuffing...etc, you shouldn't laugh when he says Tacos! Or she says Noodles Romanoff and you start thinking Chicken Pot Pie. :D I wonder if I can leave hugs for the room. :grouphug: |
I wonder if Alffe knows she made me laugh at her Thanksgiving post. I have a friend who does cook Mexican for Thanksgiving. :)
I wonder if my brothers estate will ever get settled. it breaks my heart that things have become so "nasty" between my niece and nephew and their step mom. :( I wonder about the long term effects of west nile virus. sigh....:( |
Wonder when my cancer will stop coming back. Just got upsetting phone call this evening from my docs office. 4x UGH!!!!!!!!
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Hang in hang on
Wondering if you can
Just not let the devil work on you Wonder if it to be a miracle that come into your being Wonder if the wave of love can be felt at this terrible terrible news to get yet again Wonder if you all can feel the love I have for you all Wonder if I can be a shoulder you can lean on Wonder if you know I am here just to listen and hold you close As you and I and many suffer I wonder now as like Dave He too is having blood related problems And I follow in his foot steps with this new troubling unexplained problem with my blood running through my veins and because of the pictures I took and the look on his face said enough Wondering what the hematologist will have to say about new problem as a clot can be thrown Wondering about many things Wondering if I may wish all a HAPPY HEALTHY FUNNY HAPPY FUN LOVING DAY EVERYDAY BUT ESPECIALLY ON THANKSGIVING wondering if we can remember all who have passed For our freedom And look at how we are living Wondering if my love is felt |
I wonder if eva knows that I feel the love...:hug:
I wonder how on earth the people across the street managed to get a new roof put on in two days....ice and fog..first the roofers had to shovel 6 inches of snow off :eek: I wonder if dancing lady knows that I am sorry..cancer is a monster! I wonder if goofy knows that families are so interesting...and at times very stressful :confused: I wonder if I can leave hugs for the room. :grouphug: |
I'm not alone
Wondering if it is the constant
continual return to neurotalk keeps my Spirit alive Wondered many times and swore I was the only one going through the things I am Wondering if one might think of helping another to get out of yourself Wondering if my mother thinks about us her children grandchildren and great grandchild While she has the holidays with her live in ex husband and his four children and family Wondering if my sister is feeling lonely A single fourty seven years old and will have a full hysterectomy due to cervical cancer Wondering if my other sister in the hospital with an infection Wondering if her alcoholic and heroin riddled body Who had a liver transplant and drank the day he left the hospital brought the drugs to my sisters home and introduced it to her as the ultimate pain reliever A recipient twice with fusing her right hand and wrist then lower back Wonder if she will fall hard As her husband is in the hospital with failing kidneys Liver team drop him from their care Wondering if these fingers and feet will ever let up Wonder if doctor Kevin Tracey of neurology Based in NYC in my backyard Has the ticket with his promising study on inflammation The beginning and sign something is wrong Wish I was one of a handful in his study One unnamed person cured of ailment Wonder if the weather change will happen quickly And life for the trees animals fish birds feilds of grain will deteriorate at a mega speed Watched "extinction" Chinese have refused the shark fin soup when a commercial from this T.V. Special Of a shark left at the bottom of the ocean Unable to swim It had NO fins So saddened when I seen this Wondering if I could share a hug with all of you |
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Ever wonder how we get through some of the stuff
We are subjected to My boy thirty two had a heart attack in the hospital today and survived Wonder if I made the impact for the better in my family line Wondering what he is thinking Wonder about the adversities Wonder what it takes to shape mold and become who we are Wonder what my travels thus far means Wonder how the heck I made it this far alone Wonder if Father almighty hears my prayers Wondering what baby Jesus, Mary and Joseph We're feeling on this very special day Wondering if the end is near Wonders of His love Wonder if today will be somber with Michael in the hospital Wondering what was going on when he said he couldn't shake off feeling sick Wondering what would and could have happened if he didn't go right to the hospital Wondering way more then I'd like Wondering if I can say Merry Christmas |
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Wondering about how much you have had on your 'plate'. Sending thoughts for a speedy recovery for your son... so young! take care there... next year has to be a better year for you hey?! |
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It has been a heck of a ride most my life Wondering if I can say merry Christmas to you and you're Wondering if our brother the Son of God Almighty Knowing my heart and his awesome strength was the one carring me when I just couldn't many times Wondering if I can help others understand I have been blessed by the presence of the Spirit and understand this is my life's path and wouldn't have it any other way Wondering except for one thing My body failing me Wondering if I can take it one moment at a time Wondering if all woke in the Spirit Many suffer depression and follow thru on their fatal attempts Wondering if they have someone to love them See here I go on and on |
Hmmm.... I wonder???
I wonder if anyone here remembers me???
I wonder that it's been since May that I was around....sorry about that folks. I wonder if you know that school has been kicking me hard in the back side. I wonder if I can say that I have just 3 classes left....and if things go right I will graduate in May. I wonder if I can ask for you all to keep your fingers crossed for me and if you pray... say a little prayer for me, I could use it, as this is supposed to be my hardest semester yet from what I am told by my advisor. I wonder if you can hear me screaming ARGH!!! :eek: I wonder if you all know that I do think of you all often and wonder how you are all doing but I just don't have the time to log in here. I wonder if you know how much I miss you all too??? :grouphug: Well I wonder now that it's time to once wander away and hopefully be able to wander back before the start of the semester to once again check in. :hug: to all, old and new. Abbie |
Very nice to see you :hug:
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I wonder why my aunt and sister couldn't send me a text to say, "Merry Christmas" even though I left them voice mails...
I wonder if they're punishing me for my s/s attempt last year. I know this isn't a "wonder," but I'm sorry about your son Eva. I hope he gets well soon. |
I wonder about Hippiechick.
so glad the holidays are coming to an end. heres to a new year, new beginnings, and a new normal. :grouphug: |
where does it all come from
wondering how many tears have i cried in my lifetime
wonder if i could find a way to keep a happy mood going they are so short lived wonder if in this year i'll have a very special someone to love and be loved in return wonder if my daughter will have a better year conquering her addiction and not be sucked into the abyss she has a child who is waiting wondering if my father is at peace in his afterlife wonder if sadness and depression can be eradicated with the understanding it is part of this families history and it is okay wondering how all are holding up wondering if i can say thank you for having a place to come to wondering why my sister is having some complications after having a complete hysterectomy a possible bacterial infection the hospital called her and she has diarrhea wonder if it will subside in less than 48 hours if not directly to er wondering if my eldest will not have anymore complications she too will have a procedure to relieve a kidney stone that is lodged somewhere i cannot pronounce wondering if i'll ever stop wondering |
Oh how I....
Will not stop wondering at the love in this place
Wonder at the many needs and whether blessings might abound Wonder whether cancer, depression, hurts and pain might be banned from all Wonder at my own absence as Abby does her own, along with a dose of hope for her schoolwork Wonder about those Alffe tacos......since I am so fond of Hispanic food Wonder as I wander at this time of Epiphany about miracles and what they mean for us Wonder at the blessing I know because my SCS stim is still reliable Wonder whether I, too, may leave hugz :grouphug::hug::grouphug: |
Wondering
how it can be done
Wondering when I can take a deep breath of relief everything will be taken care of Wondering if I can help her see it isn't over it is the change that needs to be made Wondering what the heck is wrong with the medical community and the responsibility of dispensing medication that can kill so blatantly no reguards to addiction Wondering when MENTAL DISRUPTION TO ONES BRAIN will be taken seriously Wondering why I do not see any improvements in the hospitals in my neighborhood Wondering why all talk no action Wondering when MY doctors will get their turd together something underlying is going on Scratch head Scratch head Scratch head Wondering about the wondering I could go on forever Wondering if the day will be calm while it is week three the fibromyalgia on back is out of control Wondering if this feeling of being burned will just stop Wondering if I will ever be able to let go of the mistakes that were made on this body Wondering how it will be five years from now Wondering if happiness could last a little bit longer Wondering if my depression will ever be lifted as it is part of my daily routine Fighting it off every morning The tears I cry every morning The pain I suffer every single moment of my waking and in sleep mode will I one day Snap Wondering Just Wondering Wondering |
Wondering if Eva knows I'm thinking of her today :hug::hug::hug:
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So "wondering"
Wondering how doctors get away with deplorable behavior
Wondering if God the Father can see and feel my determanition Wondering if this be the winning items to help strengthen my body and it is fact I have a deficiency that a body needs to work at its best Wondering how my shrink is feeling when I called and told him I will no longer be seeking his services for his remark was it being so dubious and most importantly how the work required by insurance law say "your asking us to do tedious work for you" Wondering why he has call in the last two days as I will not pick up the phone Wondering if my words are screwing with his head as I stumped him in my abundance of research Wondering if the company that I await central time and speak with someone directly at the manufacturer Wondering in the end if I will ever get a chance to try this very expensive vitamin that needs a script and an explanation why my insurance should cover it Wonder what my shrink is thinking when I told him "Why won't you let me be the judge of it" It's my body Wondering how long it is going to take to finally not be a slave to Xanax hoping for it to be replaced with this vitamin Wondering why the luck in my lifetime has been miserable Wondering why I have to fight for a vitamin Wondering if the withdrawals will be mild Wondering will I ever have something this important come to a resolve Wondering why I'm visited by this gut depression that manifest physically in my gut Wondering why I have to fight for eve thing that is right Wondering what is wrong with this country Wondering why nobody will listen and see the bigger picture Wondering how to not be depressed Wondering how can he live with himself Wondering if I left him thinking and NEVER FORGETTING ME AS MY NEUROSURGEON FAILED ME AND MY BODY Wondering if the doctors,FDA,pharmaceutical companies, insurance companies who are killing me and so on Wondering if all my work over the years made a difference Wonder if I will ever feel happy in my gut Wonder Just wondering about me |
wondering if i can leave Eva a {{{HUG}}}}
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Wondering if Eva knows I admire her for wanting to try to replace xanax with something that maybe less harmful and less addictive…
Wondering if Eva knows how difficult and scary a proposition I know that must be... Wondering if Eva knows how proud of her I am for standing up for herself and fighting for the right to do that… Wondering if Eva knows how hard that is for most people to do. :hug::hug::hug: |
Wondering together
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How incredibly spirit filled i feel I reading what my NT support comes form Wondered if I can say How empowered I feel WITH the little help from my friends Wondered Oh what a beautiful place Thank you for sharing |
why me
wondering if it is okay
to ask why me wondering wasn't it enough for one to endure fighting a fight wondering why can't it feel good when doing the right thing why is my life filled with so much adversity i don't want anymore suffering wondering if i want to hang on anymore nobody is listening wondering why i get in pain and adversity we grow wondering if i want to hang on anymore nobody is listening |
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Wondered if I could share
Wondered if I could share some good feel news
with my friends Wondered if I would be called or thought of as a hypochondriac as doctors just do not care Wondered if I could share I am feeling upbeat with some changes that are happening in my body because of my MTHFR MUTATION and am on supplements my body was depleted of all its life Wonder if that last one was long winded Wondered if I'm appreciated by my family Wondering why my sister is calling me after the blowout over me my dell bill and a computer for my nephew Wondering now because she had the laser surgery done years ago She was near sighted When the craze was no glasses anymore With no consideration when one hits their forties the loose the ability to read(far sightedness ALL COSMETIC PURPOSES just it was brandy new It was considered corrective SUGERY Is now blind in right eye And is having emergency SUGERY Retina detached and is hanging on a thread needs my comfort As mom is not interested I listened Never asked how I was doing Wondered if I could share I do not get visited by doom after a good night of sleep Wondered if I could share how important it is to eat your meals in the day Wondered if I could share my bathroom routine is not in pain Wondered if my child Christine who also tested positive Is also going to be put on supplements Wondered if people know that more than 50% of the population has the MTHFR mutation Wondered if I could share my mechanical is still very much present and alive But with a different frame of mind Wondered if I could share My experience is so exciting I almost am afraid the rug will be pulled from under me Wondering if I could share Not to give up on oneself And how IMPORTANT IT IS TO HAVE "ONE PERSON" They could talk to when considering taking ones life Wondering if my father was afflicted with the same As this is a genetic let down and if positive 99.999% of your offspring will test positive Wondering how much more ones body being afflicted by GENE MUTATION of any kind Talking about "right to the source" Wondering if I will ever see my dog I miss him so much Wondering if I could share My heart misses him so much And understand my tears I wonder if i can express Xanax in the latter part of my life as I have been on them by my cardiologist in 1995 That's a long time Kicking my butt But doing it Wondered if my happiness however like Is this is going to go and do not want to loose hopefulness And my message is To "be proactive" about your body and mind Do not give up Wondering if I could leave humbled And understood All with the love of information Love Me |
I wonder if eva knows how happy I am to read that there is some definite improvement in her life...
I wonder if eva knows that I will continue to pray for her well being...:hug: |
With much love
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I wonder why we can be so dependent on computers.
I wonder why mine just gave up and it's been in the repair shop for 8 :eek: days. I wonder why I missed it so much. I went to the local library and borrowed one theirs every evening but I still missed mine. |
Wonder when have time to turn compost
Wonder how many dozen squash we ate last year that grew from compost, leaves, and pine needles?
I see potatoes and squash starting in the compost this year, I wonder what else will grow? I wonder why trash cans that are ready for the trash make such good compost heaps? I wonder what Alfe can weight down leaves with to make compost? Would an old kiddie pool make a good compost bin? Would food grown from compost keep our cancers away? Does your local Starbucks give free compost? Why is compost so smelly in the kitchen when no one wants to take it out? Can we draw parallels to our society from compost? Is compost sustainable? How can you do compost if you don't have a yard? Does your truck's backup sensor beep for compost? |
I wonder if tied knows that she made me laugh, think, and wonder a lot!
I wonder why nothing ever grew from my compost pile but it did make great soil I wonder if I turned it over too much I wonder if I should have put more garbage in it instead of egg shells, coffee grains, banana peels, leaves paper and water. :wink: |
Remimbering
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It my parents house I wonder if the yard is still feeding the owners It was tedious work But soooo relaxing In the early morning when the dew atop the leaves Wonder if the rows of roses Surrounding the whole back yard are still alive Remembering weeding to music Reaping the rewards of the Food it delivered All vegetables the peach tree my father planted The wine grapes Wonder if any of that still lives My children had good times As did I After divorcing I rented the first floor And we lived there for 12 years Wonder if my sister know how helpful It was to watch them as I worked nights Wonder if I can say Thanks for the GOOD Memories |
I wonder if Eva knows how much I enjoyed reading her memories
I wonder what key I pressed to make this type slant...:o I wonder when our tree man will finally come to dismantal and haul away our hot tub.... I wonder when he'll pick up all the logs in the yard.... I wonder when Mr.Alffe will tackle his man cave...our house will never sell looking like that!! I wonder when I can improve my attitude about moving....:( I wonder why the birds are fighting...oh wait, I know. :D |
I wonder where Alffe is moving to???? :hug:
I wonder about the unfairness of insurance companies. :mad: I wonder at how excited I am that we get to go hear my son sing Easter Sunday morning. He was asked to be a guest singer at a church in OKC, and they are paying him!!!! :sing: I wonder if i can leave hugs and prayers for my friends here. :grouphug: |
I was just wondering
It is thirty six years today my father killed himself
in or second family ford white station wagon Wondering what is up in the afterlife Wondering if any regrets Wondering if he knows I am not okay with what he stole from me when I was a little girl Wondering what my mother is thinking Wondering g if my sisters are alright today Wondering why it had to happen around the block from our home Wondering if my uncle is thinking of him and him not taking it seriously because he cried wolf so many times Wondering if he felt I was ready to confront him with what he did to me Wondering how a parent can look at their children CHILDREN and abuse them and strip me of my natural process to womanhood Wonder what happened to him to have become that monster Wonder why my mother turned her head the other way Wonder why my mother still wants a relationship with me in secret Wondering what ever happened to the note Wondering if she kept it Wondering what was going through his mind Wondering what he looked like when he was found by municipal workers collecting garbage Wondering what is going on with my boy He cut his ties with me Have no clue why But was born on this day His birthday Wondering how things got to where they are now Wonder if he know I am done trying to keep us together as a family Wondering if to much time goes by If I will want them to even bother One just gets used to the way it is I have no control over him Never did Wonder if my lineage will die out Wonder if I can hang on long enough to see things work out with everyone Wondering if I will ever experience Love For a partner in my life in the end to be happy with Wondering if my father regrets any of it Wondering what devestation has come to this family Over and over and over again Wondering if I will ever meet him again Still wonder Why |
I wonder if I can leave eva a hug...:hug: Some anniversary dates are the pitts!
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Wondering if anyone would mind if I can respond without all the "wondering"?
I often wonder how my family members are doing or what they are thinking of on the anniversaries of family members' deaths or on their birthdays. These occasions stir up memories- good and bad. A suicide is much worse. One reason is the lack of closure, and you have many unresolved issues with your father :hug::hug::hug: I can't imagine how it must feel to have to live with the conflicted feelings you must have about your father and his suicide… even after 36 years. I understand your mother had a difficult life, but it must be so hard to make peace with the decisions she made and have any kind of relationship with her :hug::hug::hug: I am thinking of you, and hoping you are doing okay dealing with the memories surrounding this life event :hug::hug::hug: I'm so sorry that you're still struggling with issues with your children. I don't know the specifics, or the extent of the problems, but it seems to me like you love them and really want them to be part of your life. You can close the door part way because their behavior right now is hurtful and you need to protect yourself, but leave it open a crack so they have an opening to get back in when the timing is right :hug::hug::hug: I wonder if you realize you are still young Eva… I wonder if you know there is still time for change I wonder if you know I am hoping for good things for you because you are due :hug::hug::hug: |
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I pray only for the better I am wiser and as hard as it is I have begun to put my foot down No more pooping on me Thank you for the comforting words They did the job Yesterday was my eighteen year olds birthday Spent in her chosen place not to hear from her It hurt It really really hurt I do love them way overboard Just do Love Me |
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