Hey everyone
 

Where to start? Been having a hard time. My mom died of lung cancer in November, no funeral, we had to have our own little memorial service. It was horrible. She suffered so badly. I know she's not in pain anymore but it's been so hard with Mother's day passing and her being gone.

So, I have been sewing a lot. I'll share some pics, I just feel so lost sometimes, it's like a switch goes off around 5-6 pm and I slide into a pit of sadness and despair. <sigh> Sewing makes it go away, but I don't sew at night.

I hope you're all well, I know I have been gone for a long time, but I was dealing with a lot of stuff. Mom got sick fast and went downhill in a day short of 2 months from her diagnosis. Anyway, missing you all. :grouphug:

Mom working on her last crochet project, a cowl she made for me:

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Her and my son, she's wearing one of the Muumuu's we made her:

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John holding up the last Muumuu we made her:

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The four Muumuu's we made her in a two week period:

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Here's John & I working on a handbag:

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Bunch of handbags I've made:

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Hope you liked the photos,not sure why they are so huge...I'll be around a little more. Take care everyone. Thanks for caring.

Hi, Pam, :hug::hug::hug::hug:

I am sorry for what you have been going through.
Thanks for the pictures of your mother. You were good to her.


M

I appreciate that so much Mari, it's so good to see you. Yes, I was good to her, and we had time to say all the important things that mattered, but it's just so hard not having her here to talk to anymore. Thank you for caring. <3 :hug:

hi Pammie,
It is good to see you.
Sorry it has been so hard on your family.
I know that mothers day was especially hard on you.
I am glad that you have your sewing.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I am so very sorry. It is a loss you can't get over. speak to her in heaven. she is probably your guardian angel now.
take care
bobby

I'm so sorry for your loss, Pam :hug::hug::hug:

Pam,

Your sewing is amazing. I am certain she appreciated the Muumuus you made for her.


The purses you made look detailed. Were they a lot of work?


M

Thank you everyone, I'll never forget when she looked at the teal one, the first one we made her. Her expression of amazement was something to behold. I felt such pride, that I had been able to have my son help me create something that would comfort her. Thank you all for caring. I know I've been away for some time. But I never forget my friends here. Thank you for not forgetting me.

The bags are a little bit of work, but they are fun to make. I am making a quilt right now and hope to get one more bag made soon, a new pattern, a hobo style one. It's like I am trying to find the perfect sized bag, and the first one, the navy and cherries one, that was too big, the others are just a bit too small, but they have zipper closures. So I like that. I can't wait to make the hobo, other than I have to wait because I am having the left carpal tunnel released soon. <3

First one with matching organizer:

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Here it is next to the one of the ones I made for myself out of animals fabric:

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Made a matching one for a dear friend:

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I haven't been up to sewing, probably more from emotional anguish than pain honestly. I need to work through it somehow. I have a new tdoc and pdoc and they are great, but it's hard. Very hard trying to learn new coping tools. Been working with Core Mindfulness, it's helping, but only when I remember to use the new skills I'm learning.

I loved the muumuus but I love more the animal ones-so precious
bobby

Thanks bobby, I am still using that one and my friend is using hers. I was going to make mom and I matching bags, using this fabric but when she got sick I made her the 4th muumuu with it instead. Walmart has it and I bought enough that I have enough squares cut to make my son a quilt of it too. :)