I'm So Terribly Sad Inside
 

I have not felt so sad in a long time. Life has been so difficult lately. I did not think it could get much worse after I asked my daughter to leave our home but it did get worse. Katie was arrested again. She continues to oppose authority. She met me outside our apartment building as we were pulling in after my hubbys aunts funeral and just dropped the bomb on me. She sounded as if she thought it was cool. I have not had a panic attack since I was finished councelling for it over a year ago. I had one a while after her news. I have been exhausted ever since. My sugars have been so high..stress seems to raise them on me...and I have had very little sleep lately. Last night I went to the Treasure House, a Christian book and gift store and felt a little more serene when I left but I find myself slipping into that terrible spot where I feel sad and hopeless. Life is soooo hard to deal with sometimes. My heart is aching and I can't seem to stop it!! Sorry All....just really needed to vent:girl(sad):

oh Dorrie:( my heart just aches for what you are going through

You have to take care of you now Dorrie.

You have offered your daughter all of you, but she has not accepted the help you have to give her.

You cant destroy yourself while trying to help her find herself

I hope and pray you will feel a spark of hope and encouragement deep inside of you Dorrie.

And that it will get easier for you.

:hug:
Cheri

Thanks, Cheri! Believe it or not I am generally a very very happy and positive person. I feel sort of bad for always bringing negative stuff to the forums. Thank you for all of your kind words, Cheri. I hope I will feel better soon! I do hope you and your hubby are doing ok.:hug: Dorrie

I am so sorry that you are feeling this bad, Dorrie. I know that none of us ever really outgrows our children, but Cheri is right. This is one case when you need to focus on yourself, becaue you have to stop the ship from sinking before you can take on someone else. I know what you mean about not wanting to sound negative on the forums. You would rather help than ask for help, right? I'm the same way. But a few good friends of mine here have told me I was being silly by feeling that, and they were probably right.

Anyway, I hope that this depression you've been put in will go away very soon, and let you return to being your cheerful self. Good luck, Dorrie, and all my best wishes. :)

Idealist

Thanks, Idealist. Today I feel a little better. I had a decent sleep and I had spent some time here before that. I really do think it was the time I spent here that has helped. I know that I am not myself yet but as long as I am going forward I wiill be OK. All of the support and encouragement I receive from people like you really is helping my doom and gloom cloud go away! Thanks again, Dorrie:)

Hi Dorrie,

It was so fun to read your last post, and then see that your mood today is Happy.

((((((((Dorrie))))))))))

Hi Dorrie,

How are you today? :hug:

befuddled2

Hi BF...I am doing absolutely wonderful today, thank you for asking! I see that you are doing better too...you mood is cheerful! That is so good to see! Have a super day BF, :hug: Dorrie:)

Hi Dorrie,

Good to see you feeling better.

befuddled2

Gosh I'm late as usual to see this thread.

But I will keep you in my thoughts.

I really understand all this.

I have two grown son's that have dealt with lots of issues.

And still do.

Donna