the depression is worse
 

I feel so empty and alone. Yesterday Marci was over and I couldn't wait til she left. I was very irritable. she said something about playing cards and said she didn't know how too and I became so angry. I don't want to play cards especially with somebody who doesn't know how to play cards. I just wanted to be left alone and miserable. The increase in wellbutrin hasn't helped unless it has made it worse or else not kicked in. I might go for a little walk because I can;t stand it.
Bobby
I forgot the friendly visitor came over on sunday with treats for the holidays. I like her. I knew her from the carter burden center. She is a spring chicken in her middle eighties who is still beautiful with a wonderful figure who always wears jeans and loves animals. Yesterday the social worker called to tell me the therapist is going to call me

Bobby

I sure hope today is better.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I think it was nice of her to offer to engage in an activity with you, but I would not want to play cards with someone who didn't know how to on a good day! I can't imagine how trying that would be if you were already irritable.

I'm glad that you had a nice time with your friendly visitor. She sounds like quite a lady! I'm glad that you got to talk with another animal lover :)

I'm happy that you got an opportunity to speak to the social worker again and are expecting a call from a therapist soon. It sounds like a good time to talk to someone, since you are feeling alone and still so depressed :hug::hug::hug:

The change to the Wellbutrin was recent, so I think it's too soon to know whether or not it is helping :hug:

How are you doing Bobby?

You have been a little quiet... :hug::hug::hug:

I haven't been feeling well. I am constipated. I thought I found a good laxative but it stopped working. My aide vanessa is working out well. she knows weight watchers but I really can't cook. She said she would walk with me. She is filled with common sense and I think she is bright. she didn't do the bathroom or kitchen yesterday because she said they didn't need it. I agreed. they looked as if they had been done so I could fault her. she did the wash a few times and helped bag clothes for good well. three huge bags. she makes me feel like a fool in a not a put down way. Like when i told her I never had a mammography or colonscopy she said don't you want to live? I didn't answer her.
She was born in Harlem but her whole family lives in sumter. I told her a best friend former came from there and we drove through it on the way to florida.
I might ask her to cook for me. She is so natural.
My stomach feels a little better but I am still nauseated.
bobby

Bobby,

That is good that you like Vanessa.
She will be good to walk with I hope.

And you two got a lot accomplished if you bagged up some clothes for GoodWill.

I really hope that your stomach gets better.

M

Bobby
When it comes to an mammogram, in the case of my husbands mom. It was
when she was like 75 I think that they did the mammogram.

She didn't ever have another after that one.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I am not doing well. I am so depressed and isolated and irritable. I have been watching the news and I shouldn't. I can't seem to read which usually provides relief.The medication is just not working. I feel trapped. I still don't feel well and I gained back most of the weight.

It sounds like having Vanessa around will be good for you as long as she doesn't become too authoritative. She sounds very helpful and interested in your well-being.

Moderate constipation can definitely make you nauseous… I'm sorry you are feeling so lousy from it :hug::hug::hug:
Have you tried taking a bottle of liquid magnesium citrate? It will usually do the trick. I suggest any flavor but the lemon-lime.

I was thinking of you this morning when I was having my first cigarette of the day. I woke up feeling so much better, and I wish you could wake up feeling better some day soon, too :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
I was wondering if Rexulti could help you. BUT 1) It's an atypical antipsychotic, so it comes with a lot of potential side effects, and 2) it's expensive (I know you get extra help with scripts tho), so I don't know if it would be a good option for long-term use. I'm not going to be on it for long and I'm getting free samples. Maybe you can ask your pdoc about it? IDK. What are your thoughts about it Bobby?

Love to you today :hug::hug::hug:

I don't know what is wrong with my stomach. I have cut back on coffee. the phillips caplets are working thank goodness. supposedly my being a senior citizen in nyc I shouldn't have to pay more 20 dollars
I went around the block for coffee and met stella-I had trouble walking back. then she mentioned wheelchair-egads. I tried some senior exercises and I couldn't do them
love
bobby
i already am on risperdal. I will ask my doctor because this chemical and maybe physical don't know if
BREXPIPRAZOLE is an antipsychotic. It is used to treat schizophrenia. This medicine is also used in combination with antidepressants to treat major depressive disorder. The lowest GoodRx price for the most common version of Rexulti is around $1,038.46, 16% off the average retail price of $1,243.68. if my plan covers this