We lost wifi at some point during the day
 

I spent a huge amount of time on my computer dealing with logging into sites (including this one) -- figuring
out my passwords -- asking for new passwords --- I found the whole
thing soooooo stressful and upsetting.
(not good with details).


After hubby went to bed, I learned that the Television also needs several
log-ins. I cannot wake him up but I really want to.

I cannot go to bed without the t.v. working or the Pandora or the Netflix apps on the t.v. working.
SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE WORKING SO I CAN BE DISTRACTED FROM THE hypnagogic hallucinations.
I need them as
I would a babysitter.

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I feel so very alone in the house. It is night and I am not o.k.


M

up all night. organizing my phone. dentist later in the day.
 

I am so angry. :mad: I woke him up. His t.v. works perfectly as does his computer.

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Most of the music on my phone did not survive the 13-day fiasco hubby created
when he effed with it. I looked at my phone just now to see if I have music to
listen to at the dentist. Answer: None


I TRY SO HARD TO MANAGE.


Not managing right now. Dunno how I can sleep. Maybe I should go for a
walk or a car ride.



I downloaded 50 greatest tracks of Pavarotti.

Also Jason Isbell.

Also Guns and Roses.

That should occupy me while in the dentist chair. REALLY REALLY HOPE I
CAN FIND MY EAR BUDS

Otherwise the dentist will suck.

M

Anxious
 

I took a whole 1.0 Klonopin.


Found a radio.


Canceled dentist.

Oh Mari, I'm so sorry... that sounds miserable :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that you cancelled the dentist. After having such a terrible night, and getting absolutely no sleep, there's no need to put yourself through further punishment today :hug::hug::hug:

I hope you are able to get some sleep and your husband is able to straighten out the TV, Netflix, and Pandora passwords for you ASAP :hug::hug::hug:

oh that sounds miserable.
I hate it when I have technical troubles.
Sorry that you had to go thru that.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hubby just figured out the tv a minute ago.

I have tons of work for a
meeting w/boss tomorrow.
'Need to pull together a portfolio.
Hubby's boss is not making him do a portoflio so
hubby acts like is not a big deal.


I made a mistake a few days ago on something that might be important.
The boss has to fix it for me.
I hope he is accommodating.


M

I hope he is accommodating also.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Boss and I had a good meeting.
I've seen him when he was distracted or stressed but Friday he was relaxed and friendly.

I bullshitted and flattered him a little and that worked.
Nice to have a boss that responds well to flattery.:D

We did well together. I talked through my yearly portfolio a little that I tossed
together the night before. (It was all crap and messy but my talking was
more important to him anyway).


He listened and asked questions and I do not remember what happened exactly but I think I agreed to some goals to
complete for next year -- probably should have written them down.:eek:


M (I did that on three hours of sleep.)

I'm sorry you had to go through that crap and your husband didn't have to. It must be handy to have figured out your boss so well, and it sounds like the two of you work well together. I'm happy everything worked out :)

I hate it wen I forget/don't think of writing things down until later. I'm forever doing that lately :o

I am glad that you had a good meeting with your boss.
Know how important that is.
As far as goals, just keep doing what you are doing....
Taking care of yourself.

(((HUGS))))
bizi