Saw official crash report now I'm crashing.
 

Accident two months ago still dealing with PCS. Lawyer sent over the full accident report with witness account and BAC of the driver that totaled my car. I immediately cried when I read it. Then hyperventilated. I can't read it without hyperventilating. Anybody experience this after a major car accident? His BAC was 0.229. That just blows my mind. I wonder if the BAC being so high will make it more likely that the insurance company will just settle.

Reading the witness description was hard too because I wasn't certain of what happened but I new the dudes truck went over the driver side of my car because the last thing I remember is seeing metal through my window. Reading it made it more real. I don't even remember my car crashing into the car in front of mine. I guess it did.

Now I have symptoms. Huge Headache. Light sensitivity. I know it's the anxiety. Going to rest for a bit now. Thanks for reading.

At least you know it's anxiety so can put it in its place! It sounds like you may have some PTSD like symptoms not surprising considering the accident you experienced, maybe counselling could help you? I'd take it easy until it subsides, a walk through woods and park helps me.

Therapy
 

Thanks for the reply. I am going to a therapist that I used to see a long time ago and have found it helpful. Not every week just monthly right now. For the most part I am managing it all well but apparently that email sent me over the edge yesterday. I was surprised by my reaction but knew what it was and spoke with two close friends. I feel better today just sad about it. Going to do my daily walk soon. Exercise helps :) Thanks!