NeuroTalk Support Groups - Dont Know What to Do

Hi, this is my first post here. Ive been searching the Internet, looking for help/support. Im reaching the end of my tether.

My daughter is 9 years old. From an early age it was clear she was different, but quite intelligent. My family is rife with mental health issues, and as I have two children already with ASD, my daughter was tested. The results came back inconclusive as the professionals couldnt agree. Eventually she was diagnosed with ADHD. Every time we saw the paediatrician, my daughter (Ill refer to her as DD from now on) was in a good mood, quite high spirits almost to the point of being off. What I found hard to explain to the paed, was the dramatic low points she enevitably hits. I have a brother with bipolar, and as DD gets older, I recognise the symptoms more and more. I expressed my concerns to the paed, and he told me shes too young to be diagnosed (shes 9), and shes such a delight, she just needs some discipline when necessary. Im no softie, I dont let my kids get away with everything, but I balance it with lots of love too. Even after I told the paed that my daughter has had episodes where she hears voices that arent there, and at one point thought she was Gods chosen one, and his mouthpiece for humanity, the paed still saw this as nothing to be concerned about.

DD was given dexamphetamine for ADHD, and its made things worse. I stopped it after a few weeks. Recently puberty has hit, and her symptoms have ramped up dramatically. The lows are coming thick and fast, and she spends a lot of time in her room talking to herself. This all come to a head yesterday while I was at work. I cant use my phone at work, its against policy, and I dont have time anyway. I work in the food industry, my shifts are only 4-6 hrs long, three times a week. I finished a particularly gruelling shift yesterday, and called my mum to let her know I was on my way home (its school holidays and she watches the kids while Im working). I then noticed a message from my daughters iPod sent to my phone, it said Im blocking you. I scrolled back to find an absolute tirade of abuse. She had texted me to get my payment information for a YouTube movie. I had already told her in the past that she cant have my payment info. Now, because I couldnt answer, the approximately 50 messages were full of random emojis, and then messages such as If you dont answer me, im telling the school what a fat ugly mother you are, and that you care more about your customers than your kids, youre a pig, no, youre a cow, a fat ugly cow, answer my request, I hate you you ungrateful pig!. She had never gone this far before. I immediately sent the texts to my husband, then sat in the car and cried before I went to meet the kids. Her iPod has been confiscated. I asked her what on earth she was thinking, and she just shrugged and looked back at me blankly. I told her, through tears, how inappropriate she had been, and her father came home and spoke to her about it too. She says she doesnt know, or understand why she said what she did. An hour later, shes acting like nothing ever happened.

Come bedtime, she struggled. She kept getting out of bed and coming to hug me, telling me her tummy hurt and her head felt funny. She got out of bed at least 10 times to come hug me before she finally wrapped herself in my bathrobe, and went to sleep.

Ive been trying to tell the doctor for So long something isnt right. I know I have physical proof in those messages now, but our next appointment isnt until September; chances of bringing it forward are slim. I also have video footage of an incident where she went from zero to 100 and got so frustrated, she threw the garbage bin across the room.

I dont know what to do. She shares a room with a younger sister, but were rearranging things now because I fear for the younger ones safety. I feel so hopeless, lost and dont know what to do from here. How did everything go so wrong?