BJ
 

I just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you! :hug:

I second that. I'm hoping you are getting lots of rest and help and are finding out that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Fasten your seatbelt, sweetie, and hang on.

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happyier days are coming to you...they really are
babysteps in all of this....learning to take care of yourself bit by bit,,
BE PATIENT.
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BIZI:hug: :hug: :hug:

Alffe - Maybe you heard her snoring. :rolleyes: Does she always nap this long?

BJ
When you wake up from your nap, we'll be here to serve you some cookies 'n chit. :grouphug:

:hug: BJ

sending you much love

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Woke up with you on my mind BJ. :hug:

I don't feel very brave. If I was I still wouldn't be here. I'm severely depressed and it wouldn't be so bad if I could take anti-ds like normal people do. But I'm not normal, I'm BP and I can't take them because they make me manic. I had Lithium toxicity from being so dehydrated and that didn't help matters much.

I'm still so tired it's unbelievable. But I think we're making progress on what's going on inside my head. I had a plan, which I now realize. that was when that last petal fell off that one Rose of Sharon I was going to see my mom. that's why I had to get into the hospital. But I'm afraid if I go home and all those petals are gone, I'll do it. I need to get my focus on living again, a reason. We talk and talk and talk and then talk some more. I'm hiding something from myself and we can't dig it out. But as I'm typing this, things are going through my head a hundred miles an hour. That's why I'm so tired.

Thank you, once again, Alffe for starting this and everyone for thinking of me.:hug: You're all very special to me even though I haven't offered my support like I should.:o But I plan to make sure I do once I can sort this all out.

I love you guys and I miss you so much. :grouphug:

BJ!!!!!! It's so wonderful to hear from you! Depression in itself can make us very fatigued. It sounds like you ARE making progress and that's a very good thing.

Much love and lots of hugs.

it's gotta be hard, not able to take meds to even numb yourself outta pain...

it's gotta be hard, to be severely depressed and that every corner seems like dead ends...

it's gotta be hard, to miss your loved ones and feel like the only reason that you are alive, is that you are alive and that's it...without any explanations...

it's gotta be hard, to stay alive and wishing you were dead but staying alive because you wish you were dead...make sense??

but...

it's gotta be good, that you are here posting and letting us know that you are alive...

that takes a LOT of guts...

it is harder to stay alive than it is to be dead...it takes a lot of guts to live than it is to die....

hang on tight...

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