i am going to cancel my next two therapy appointments
 

although he knows a great deal about Judaism he sh@TS as a therapist.
on monday i am going to cancel next two appointments with him. Between my parents and him I was up practically the whole night feeling so angry. He was making me feel very vicious..
I have mentioned to him that i go for food when I am depressed. Last time his therapeutic response was that he liked brown cow yogurt because it has cream on top but it is high in calories. he is 63.
i have a 22 year old caseworker who has been on vacation for two weeks. she makes me feel good but at the end of the semester she will stop. Previously I had another young caseworker from Dorot whom I also found very soothing and optimistic.
I tried hard but I couldn't remember my mother kissing or hugging me or my sister. I also went through a period where I would run around around the house yelling kill me kill me that is what you want and she kept running after me and shutting the windows. Of course she served as president of the woman's republican of Hartford, president of the PtA and head of the brownies.

I don't know what to say. I understand wanting to cancel appointments. I'm struggling with that myself. Not that i have an uncaring therapist, i just don't know how much I'm getting from it. Well, i mean it costs money you know and it needs to be helping me. Anyway, while normally I'd say go with your gut and i still do, i just have a bit of hesitation because maybe the therapists do know more about us than we know about ourselves? I don't know anymore. Sorry if this was all utterly unhelpful. Thinking out loud again.

i was a therapist for children and their parents. I was very good. this doesn't cost me any money. you can't believe how upset he got me. he really doesn't go in depth about my many issues. i bet he hasn't even heard of Jung. what good does do it do for me to hear he likes brown cow yogurt with cream on top.
fondly.
bobby

Bobby

I think you need maybe to talk to your casemanager about whether there
might be a different maybe younger therapist you could talk to. Explaining
this therapist wants to talk about food all the time, and it isn't something
you can explain but he isn't listening when you ask not to talk about it.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i will do that on monday. it isn't that he talks about food all the time but I found it very inappropriate that instead of helping me with my issue he skipped over that and just talked about himself. He keeps on pushing dumb movies and I keep on saying I don't like them.
I mentioned that I feel all alone not lonely and he didn't get it. He suggested a nursing home or something like that so I won't be alone. He doesn't get it.
I would have to leave my cats and I would feel even more alone. He is such an *** not to know that being with strangers enhance the feelings about being isolated..
love
bobby

Bobby

The thread you wrote is exactly what you need to tell the case worker.

And explain how the other one the intern talks to you and listens.
And that the people that call you and listen because they care are
listening not just telling you things they think would work for a person
of your age period. Like a nursing home.

I totally get what you are saying.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thank you so much.
love
bobby

i know it is crazy but i decided to skip my antidepressant and see what happens. i just ordered magnesium glycinate. two psychiatrists used antihistamines to get off of klonopin. before.
i want to see if i can get along without a psychiatrist.
i woke up feeling good. getting out all that anger really helped.

Bobby

There is nothing wrong with trying to get off all the medication.
But do me a favor look up how to slowly go off that particular medication
because you have been on it a longer time than the other two you
just went off of. And I don't want you to crash later because you tried to
go off too fast.

It might even be for a week that you need to take it every other day
and then try every three days. Then see if you can not take it at all.

Or if you take it twice a day take it just once a day for a week. And
then the next week just every other week. And then every third
day. And then keep it if you start getting were you feel you need it.

Donna

hi
i just took a tiny bit this morning and will take a tiny bit tonite. next week i will only a tiny dose only once a week.
love
bobby