where i am today
 

see, i'm ok now... sorta. start to post again, i'll trip over my thinking about what thread to answer and feelings and i'll get all crunkled up again. yes, somewhere between crumpled and crinkled, so there sue me.

Hi Waves
 

Dear Waves,
Thanks for the post and the hug.
'Sorry that you are crying. Stay with us on the planet. Please.

Mari :hug:

A lot of times now I say to myself...I love God...I trust God and Love wins....I try not to dwell in the negative pull of bipolar. The negative pull still wins right now but saying those thoughts are powerful.
I don't know when things will let up for you...but eventually when you cycle out they will....guard yourself with all your might...stay away from negative situations...if your parents try to nurture you, take it with open arms. try not to worry about tomorrow....try to get a handle on the past...conserve mental energy...
Love
Bobby

Waves


your in my thoughts Dear Waves.:hug:


David

Dear Waves,
I am glad to see you are here....
though stumbling along.
and am sad to hear that you are so upset...though you are posting again so this is good.
I love your poetry...it patters at my heart.
wishing you some of our warm weather.....
and my sleeve to wipe your tears....
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Glad to see you waves.

And I too love the poetry.

Donna

thanks
 

doing a bit better right now. alone, at night, in the quiet. it is a relief

until someone gets up and disapprovingly takes mental note of my being awake at an "inappropriate" time... sigh... so that they can make disapproving comments of my "inappropriate" daytime sleeping tomorrow.

Ironically i started this thread to say i couldn't post but it ended up sounding different. i wasn't trying to write a poem but it did end up more verse than prose, i suppose. :o

Mari, thanks for the "tether" i am being tossed about.

Bobby, i think those are good affirmations. i am having trouble with my cosmic credences, which brings all the more turmoil. i don't know if it might useful, but for now just pain. i will try to follow your advice about protecting myself from negative influences.

David, thanks, and glad you enjoyed the 'poem'

Bizi, also thanks and yes i guess that i broke the 'postal barrier' is a good sign. it's nice to know my poetry is patter pattery to you. that was touching. i sure could use the weather... but i'll still need a long sleeve! ;)

Donna, thanks for the compliment also, and for thinking of me.

:grouphug:

~ waves ~

the light will come again
 

waves

i thought i saw you tonight as i floated loose and lost here in the night
we are 2 weeks away from the darkest day of the year
but then the solstice
the coming of the light, again.

Let's hang on until the light finds us
:hug:

Dear Molly,
I am with you on the Solstice.
It is one of my happy nights.
From then on, the days get longer and the nights get shorter

Mari

good about staying away from negative influences. I was caught off guard recently and let them come in and then got physically sick
maybe you could try the positive affirmations in young child mode.
don't analyze and don't push and don't try to control....they might offer you some relief. The pain from depression is so powerful but affirmations are a place to run to...
Love
Bobby