Difficult to carry on normal Schedule Due to My Pain Issues
 

I was just recently Diagnosed with OSTEOARTHRITIS in my hip and my Back and I am finding bvery difficult to maintain a regular schedule because of the pain and the medications that I have to take in order to Stop the pain: I take the following medications for Pain, Methadone just increased the doseage from 10 mg a day to 15 mg this week then up to 20mg a day next week. In addition to these medications I am also on the following:MultiVitamin Cap, Calcium Carb 1.5 mg 2 times a day, Alendronate 70mg once a week, Gabapentin 300 mg 2 in the morning and 3 at nite, Venafaxine HCL 150 mg 1 a day, Cyclobenzaprine HCL 10 mg 1/2 tablet as needed, Divalproex 500 mg 1 at night, Trazadone HCL 50 mg as needed for sleep, Omeprazole 20 mg 2 a day for stomach acid, Methadone 15 mg 3 tablets 2 times a day for pain, Perocet 5mg 325 mhg aceacillion 2 every 6 hrs for pain as needed. So I have to plan on any thing which I need to do in order to complete the task I need to do for that day and If I try and do more than one thing I become more tried and so this morning I am going to try at least to go to the Grocery store and get that done then later this after noon I need to go to my insurance agents Pffice or have My case manager fax the dicument over to them is what I wil probally do because I need to rest this afternoon I want to be able to Go to an AA meeting tonight Im going to try aND START MY DAY NOW i JUST WANTED TO GO O HERE AND EXPLAIN WHAT i Have been going through and want I am dealing with.f it wasnt for the kindness and love from my roommate and best friend I dont know what I would do. Sometimes all I need is a hug or a kind word to make my day go better. I am trying to figure out how to have asocial life and be in pain like I have been I asked my roomate to go eat out and she said yes she would like that so on the first of the month we are going to eat at a nice restraunt I ahvent been anywhere in a while and I need to get out and she is not dating right now.Nither and I and I have not been for a long time now she has had 2 relationships and I have had none in the last 6 months, and with the brain tumor recovery I feel like I am still learning things from her every day and Im glad she is so patient with me. anyway I dont have say any other relationshiips besides the one that I have wiith her as a Best Friend and My Case Manager as a professional trust relationship I do not have any male friends or any other female friends. I have male abuse issues I was raped by 3 men when I was younger and one other black man also. and I was assulatted by a black roommate that I had last year. and while I am not preduece I dont want any men freiends at all in my life. I am still rebuilding my life and I think I have a right to chose if I dont want certain people in my life. So for now I will just listen to mym case manager and my roommate about women and My roommate gives me good advice that my case manager agrees with most of the time to avoid certain women there was one online that both myself and my roommate has caught in several lies and I had to delete her from my My Space account because she was sending me 8 commnets a day and yahoo messages to call her and come see her etc.. So for now I am following her advice and i am ignoring any communication with her, and yews that does leave me all ALONE BUT i ASKED MY ROOMMATE if I was and she told me that I have her and Iam not alone. Its true but its not quite the same as a dating relationship with intimincy involved, I have had some problems sexualy after the brain tumor surgey and I have talked to my Nero doctor and my case manager and my roommate even she isnt shy and ahe and I talk about everything I think a lot of it is fear based and I still need therpy to get to the reasons behind the fears.