Why not die?
 

Ok, you got me. Your friends family, people you wok with, anyone that cares about you. What - miss the right spot, what if your drugs miss? It's not so easy to die. Do u you want a stroke? I had one at 33. Do u want to see your face not right forever? I saw this at 33. Do u want to be sick for mo's after u get out of the hosp.? I was. want to be scared of not be able to walk, speak, care for your child... I didn't! Somehow I came to believe I was not ready to die. I wanted it so but became scared if I missed.


I have to get a will - depressed and will not, I never put up my mothers monument due to no estate close. I have to file and pay for her 08 return, no help and refuse to leave house, what do I do with my 6 yr old? I can't have sleep overs.... She has no fiends now - see my post on ms brd. She hates me. I could go on for 50 lines -- bottom line -- my child but I am too sick to keep her. So forget the 50 lines and tell me why not risk it and hope for the best - to die!!!!!

Sorry I can't sp or type any longer

(((sheena))) I'm sorry you are in such despair and feeling hopeless right now.

I can tell you from a survivors point of view why you shouldn't take your own life. You will leave your daughter with the legecy of suicide...the forever knowledge that she wasn't good enough for you to live for. The anger, the sorrow and question of why...why would my mother choose death over me

It's a nightmare existance so please don't do it to her.

Life isn't fair but we have to take responsibility for the choices we make. :hug:

Sheena

I think one of the finest gifts a parent can give a child is a good story. A story of how her mother endured and overcame the storms of life, despite the odds. :cool:

It's worth another try at life, and another, and another. Even if it doesn't work, what's the worst that could happen? It will kill you - oh well. :rolleyes: At least she will know you never gave up trying to live. It may give her a little strength years from now when she needs something to hold on to life. :)

I hope today is a bit brighter for you:grouphug:

Yes, I agree - that was just a real bad day. I'm sorry. One of my lesions control my mood. It's no fun. I try to keep Emily's hopes high. I'm not checking out on her. Thanks all.

It's okay, Sheena. We all have to vent sometimes. Nice belch, btw. :p

Good luck to you and Emily. :)

You're welcome here anytime sheena...it's a great bunch of people. :hug:
And I love the name Emily. *grin

(((Sheena)))

I'm so glad you checked back in to let us know all is as well as can be. Hang in there lady. :hug:

((((Sheena)))):hug: