Hey muttontastic
 

Hi there ~ I sure hope you're out there lurking some more. We would like to get to know you and hear how you're doing.
Here's a hug from all of us. :grouphug:

Hi Wren,

I am here and trying to get a feel for the community here. It's been a very long day and I'm exhausted, but I am otherwise ok I suppose.

I guess I posted in this forum because I have some past associations with suicide (wanting to die and actually attempting - however weak an attempt it may have been). I'm looking for answers to find out what's the matter with me and how I got so messed up in the first place. I'm afraid that as I continue trying to rebuild my life, it's going to throw me into a deeper depression and it may conjure up some of the feelings that I used to have. The thought of that happening scares me to death. I was a mess back then - self injury, constant suicidal ideation. I don't want to head back down that path for my son's sake, so I'm trying to get a grip on things and understand myself before it happens.

Hopefully this wasn't too much info too soon. I certainly don't want to be obnoxious or overbearing right off the bat. It does feel good to get it out, though. I'm used to just keeping my feelings to myself.

Thank you for asking and I hope your day is going well.

{{{HUGS}}} Muttontastic..... I could have made your post. I was majorly into SI and attempted suicide. I spent time on the psych floor of our local hosptial.
that was very sobering.... You'll find the people here very kind and helpful... You'll find one of the themes here is "Talk About It".... When you are comfortable sharing we'll be here to listen.... Welcome to our family....
Its a wonderful place!!!!
vicky

(((Mutton))) It's nice to have you here. :hug:

It's refreshing to see that people actually want to talk about it. Most people think you're crazy if you've ever even thought about suicide, and they pity you if you know someone who has. It's such a sad thing.

Anyway, the "talk about it" atmosphere will be one that requires some getting used to on my part. I'm not used to talking about anything, especially with people I don't know. But I have come to realize that I won't get any better if I continue to hide things from people. I'm not any less of a person because I have these feelings. It just means that I feel things and cope with them in a different way and that's ok. I just wish I didn't have to have them in the first place :(

Hi mutton - :) It's good to see you again. I am so glad you feel welcome to talk all you want here. :hug::hug::hug:

dear wren for welcoming mutton, that's why she came back to us...

the strength of the SOS forum...

"LOVE AND CARING"