my story
 

recently i got into a fight and got beat up real badly
i had a huge bump in my forehead and got punched directly in the eye.
as soon as i got hit in the eye everything turned black and i had blurred vision
in the eye for a week and the morning after the fight i also had pain in the neck. i went to the doctor and told them about my eye and they found nothing wrong. i was worried because i seen that my vision was cloudy in that eye and everything around me seemed darker and dreamlike.
when they told me nothing was wrong i went home hoping to get better.
i also went to the eye doctor and they also told me nothing was wrong they did a bunch of test they said i just had a minor inflammation of the eye. the next day after the visit to the eye doctor my right eye got better but the dream like feeling was still there so i realised it might be more then just my eye thats the problem but the actual brain itself. i was in school i couldnt concentrate i couldnt talk to nobody i tried to be my usual self but i felt so uncoordinated and had trouble speaking to people everything in school looked so dark and dream like even when i was outside and it was sunny everything still looked dark and dream like i also felt like i had no control over what im doing even though i know i do i just feel so different and disconnected from everything around me. when i got home i realised i didnt have that usual feeling of relief as i entered my house i just felt plain and emotionless. i was actually scared to go home because i didnt want to be by myself, i started to panic i started getting nervous and was afraid to be alone i couldnt even sleep because i felt like i wasnt going to die or something might happen in my sleep one time i was sleeping i felt like i was having a seizure i started shaking uncontrollably. im scared all the time and feel nervous that this may be permanent and i might lose my eyesight which is one of my biggest fears.
i really don want to live the rest of my life like this. so after i came from school i started to feel the symptoms of pct badly and me not getting any sleep didnt help either so i went to the emergency room they gave me a catscan they said they didnt see nothing wrong they said to go to the nuerologist and that i might have pcs. but i fear that nothing can be done and that it may be permanent damage

im sorry for the long story confusing story im having trouble just typing right now.i get shakes just typing about this i feel so different i feel like i dont even exist or something and everything is so unreal i feel so emotionless
and unhappy. before when im home i had the feeling that told me im home i am this place now i just feel so blank i try to laugh at peoples jokes and conversate but everything just feels so fake this is one of the worst and most frightning experiences i ever had in my life no one should have to go through this


i feel like my life is destroyed im about to graduate and i might not even be able to because im having trouble concentrating in school i miss several days already and im in danger of repeating the year

who knew one fight can ruin a persons life whats gets me even more sad is that i could of so easily avoided the fight and went on with my life like normal but i let the emotions get the best of me and now im paying dearly for it. you really never know what u have until u lose it i thought my life sucked before now it sucks even worse whats even worse is i cant do nothing to the kid that did this to me seeing as im kinda of the one that provoked the fight

i wish some one told me the dangers of fighting and pcs it hurts so much when i realize i could of avoided all this

Good news! It's really not as bad as you might think/feel. You will get better. Check my responses to your depersonalisation post.

youll be allright. it just takes time.. it took me about 5 years until i could actually say i felt "normal". it was a life changer for me though. mine also happened while i was in school. three months before graduation. i ended up dropping out and betting my ged. u just gotta deal with it until u get better. what other choice do u have?? i remember feeling the same way u do. like my life was destroyed.. but i got better with time. it took a while but i got through it and u will too. u have to believe that u will though. good luck to you..

Let us know how you're doing Hurricane12. Hope you're feeling a bit better.

thanks for asking
thing have still been the same i feel less dizzy but thats about it
my vision and perception of things are still a problem and still have headaches and neck pain

but the vision isnt getting any better which kind of worrys me
i still see things weird and flat and things still look foggy i still cant concentrate and think and have real bad memory it almost feels like im living in a blur or a flash back.

i went to the neurologist he said i should give it at least 8 months and that it should heal in time but theres no way to be certain seeing as it took members here about 5 years to recover which is scary some even longer.

anyways its been a month hopefully ill get better soon

Don't feel that other people's experiences should represent a model for your own. Every brain is different and you're young which is a definite plus. Like agntornge says, it will take as long as it needs to and you have no choice but to wait, but the statistics point to a swifter recovery than 5 years.

Hi hurricane12, I am so sorry that you have to deal with PCS! I agree with benjamin that you will get better with time and each person is different. You might want to read www.tbiguide.com - lots of good info. I was in an accident last May and had most of the classical PCS symtoms and almost all did get better with time. I still have some headaches which are caused by tight muscles and after 11 month I found out that I have a misaligned cervical vertebra (I did not have any neck pain after my accident). My doctor sent me to a chiropractor for treatments. I am mentioning this because you said you still have neck pain and headaches. Are you using ice on your neck? You might need to learn some stretching exercises. Also, have you considered taking some anti-depressant? It can help a lot with pain and all the anxiety that goes with PCS. That would be something to discuss with your neurologist. My Chiro advised me not to sleep with my arm up under my head - I guess it stresses the neck muscles too much - and also to get enough potassium and magnesium and to eat something late at night so the muscles don't get starved over night and contract. Hope this helps.

my bad hurricane. i wasnt trying to scare you. benjamins right most people recover within a year. i dont know why mine took so long. i had a few concussions before that one so that mightve had something to do with it. sorry man.. i hope yours clears up much quicker than mine did. it will most likely..

Hey Hurricane12 - Your NOT ALONE!!!!
 

[QUOTE=hurricane12;292815]what is pcs like for you?

Hey Hurricane12,

I know your pain, my friend. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! I know, SO WELL, that I vividly recall the feeling of waking up & the wondering when the searing pain would ever go away. I often used to REALLY BELIEVE that I had died in my accident & went to Hell. That would be far too complicated to explain 2,000 years ago when the Bible was written, so they made Hell sound as if its "Hot, Fire, & suffering." I was convinced of that *UNTIL* I found the rights docs and the right meds.

Hurricane12, my friend, PLEASE get yourself to see a psychiatrist. Get there sooner than yesterday!! Like you, I could not sleep. I have been there!!! The Xanax removed the wicked Nightmares & the Ambien allows me to sleep.

I am 1.5 years into this accident, and 6 months ago I was in an identical place that you are now! I was an emotional wreck. I tried to sleep and I would lie there, DEAD TIRED, and not be able to sleep. It was, like you said, a living nightmare.

My Neurologist combined with a Pain Clinic at the hospital near me (outpatient, of course) got me on the right meds. If you would like to know more, please let me know. I'd love to be of help, bro. Just post or if you email me personally. I'd love to help ya.

THE POINT: My life is not THAT much better, it just FEELS SO MUCH BETTER now because the right medication made my life comfortable & even happy at times.

God Bless!

Joe

(For Heaven's sake, get yourself some sleep meds to start. The old wives tale that "no one ever died from lack of sleep" is TOTAL CRAP)