Mostly They Loved Me
 

I thought about that this morning when I woke up in a warm bed with warm memories. There was a time, a long time in my life when I didn't want to be here...when anything was preferable to all the pain in my life.

I know that I must have worried my family about my intentions because I was silent for the most part..but they waited and mostly they loved me.

Some tried to make suggestions about how I could go about changing my life, about busying myself with volunteer work, about changing my attitude to one of "graditude" but mostly they loved me.

Because of "them", their patience and willingness to put up with me..I not only had/have a future but have great joy and a zest for living my life to the fullest...and to give back something to this world of ours.

I have so much to be thankful for....

Hugs for the room....*grin...almost wrote womb! :D

Yes you do (((Ms. Alffe))). Your family is the best, and Mr. Alffe is a rare gem!

Unconditional love and support from my family and my closest friends have certainly helped me to get through some very difficult, dark times in my past. Some of my friends seemed to drop out of the picture but, I think it was probably hard on them because I wasn't much fun to be around. And then there was 'my best friend in the whole world' who wasn't there for me .... because he was THE problem when he left. I am so very grateful to my family and close friends ....


(((Alffe)))

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We are all very blessed.

That I know for sure! xo

i used to threaten suicide like 30 years ago-i was pretty sick i guess

suicide sucks

It really does suck Clouds...our sons' choice to kill himself just about killed our whole family...it took years to accept it and forgive it....I'll never understand it. Glad you are "over" those feelings. Thanks for posting.

Alffe, I want you to know that I have returned to reread this thread about half-a-dozen times now! What a great feeling you put into those words!

Thank you.

Idealist

Awwwww shucks Idealist. :p

I will always love you
bizi