I need to be uplifted and strength...please help!
 

I haven't been on the boards for more than one reason. The last ms attack put me in the hospital. I could only use one side of my body, other side just limp. I'm coming out of that but it is so scary to think at any given second, my physical abilities can just be taken like that. I felt so clostraphobic not being able to move around without help.

2nd, because of thiss, my neurologist would not release me to go back to work this school year. I was planning on putting in this last year then retiring with 25 years and out. But I didn't get to make the choice. It was made for me. So at the last minutes just days before school was starting, I had to turn in my resignation. Again, all out of my control.

3rd, my dd left for college WHILE I was in the hospital. When I got home her room was just practically empty. It was just the last straw. All I am doing is crying. My heart is just broken over everything.

I am a smart lady. I can make it make sense in my mind. I know all the right anwers. But my hearrt is just overriding my common sense. I really need help. I need prayers bigd time. I need strength. I believe in God and am praying. But I just need some guidance.

If you know some scriptures that could speak to me right now I would really appreciate. I've got to get myself up out of this slump. I've got to make a new life for myself with my new limitations. It's just so hard.

Thank you all for readxin trhis is being hear for me in this time of need. :hug:

:hug: Friend :hug: You've certainly been through a lot...and it's understandable to feel vulnerable and scared. MS is a scary disease. Very unpredictable. Like you, I've learned never to take for granted being able to do the smallest of tasks.

I'm so sorry about your job. You sound like you loved what you did. It's hard to not be able to work after working for so many years. I totally understand that.

Do you have any contact with your daughter at all now that she is at school? That would be hard to come home and find the empty room....especially if you hadn't had a chance to prepare yourself for that. Things seem to be magnified when we're not feeling well. Things just hit us harder it seems when we're ill.

You're in my thoughts and prayers....here are a few scriptures that I have turned to over the years when I needed strength:

Psalms 46:1
Isaiah 40:29
Philippians 4:13 (my favorite)


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But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31 NLY



Praying for you....

Oh F2Y~ I am so sorry for what you have been going through.

Please know that I am keeping you in my prayers.

Our Why Questions:

Often when we ask God for guidance, what we really want is a guide. My friend told me of a conversation he had w/his young son shortly after they moved into their new house.

''You can find your way to your new bedroom in the dark by simply turning on the lights in each room as you go..'' There was an uncertain pause, then, ''But, Daddy, won't you please go w/me?''

Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord, your God will be w/you wherever you go''.. From the book of Joshua

We are here for you F2Y.

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You are in my thoughts and prayers.

dear Friend2U

I pray God will encourage you and reassure you of His great love for you through. It IS hard to go through what you are and not feel low:hug: May He lift you up

Thank you so, so very much. Please praying. I have some other personal issues on top of these. I am just as low as I can be. Please keep praying for God to help me through this all. :grouphug:

Psalm 34:8
Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

Psalm 34:18
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

I pray that you get over this relapse and comeback stronger in body heart and soul :hug:

I am so very sorry..this is a lot on a person's plate. I think it is very tough to get "hit" both physically and emotionally at the same time. I do know that prayer, friendship and good thoughts are helpful.

I recognize that others will not agree with this, but I have noticed in my life that sometimes when I have major health issues and there are repercussions from them, that in the end, it all works out for the best. I am not sure what the reasons are for this exactly, but it could be that my mind and my body were not aligned and so "something had to give" to force me to go in another direction. Or it could be that my Higher Power was trying to tell me something. Whatever the case may be, you have been forced to chose another direction and I think it would be wise to use this time to rest and re-assess. Maybe you can figure out a new way to use your talents to work part-time to earn an income and also help others. For example, could you tutor students?

I understand the loneliness that comes when an adult child leaves for college. However, if you are not working full time, this leaves more flexibility for you to make phone calls, care packages and be home when she comes back for visits. I know it is very hard right now, especially since you are not feeling well physically and hurting deeply emotionally, but if you can gently push yourself to see the potential positives in this situation it would be of help. You are greatly cared for and even with the obstacles before you, there is much work to be done and joy to be had.

Prayers and good thoughts for strength and wisdom during this difficult time.

I'm so sorry you are so overwhelmed. So much to deal with, plus your DD going to college while you in the hospital. That's just awful! :(

I hope the sun shines for you today. :)

Know that you are in my prayers, Friend. :hug: