somedays just never end
 

About ten days ago our one high functioning autistic child(22yr old) said he was leaving home and had it all planned sometime on the 16 of sept, this eve a couple hours b4 he left he told us he was leaving tonight, deb and my fears have been beyond measure. well t minus 5 hours and he is gone and called saying he was ok and safe I wrote this

."Leap of Faith"
into the unknown Ive been here before
each time never knowing whats in store
having no choice but to trust and wait
and trust to this scary leap of faith

years ago as a sole parent of two
what Sean has epilepsy life was askew
worries and fears test medicines galore
A leap of faith helped me open that door

Deborah was her name, and became my life
I swore not to trust and never remarry a wife
she opened a dead heart one so many years blue
a leap of faith show me this love was true

I ran into a fire, because she stood at the door
entering with fear i discovered there were 3 more
each trip in could be my kids last, this had to be done
A leap of faith saved that family, and i still had my sons

now our autistic son who has grown into his own
he wants more and from the nest he has flown
these fears so hard each time I have to face them
Another leap of faith shall prevail, to this I say amen

Thank you for sharing your heart with us, Frank. Whoever said men don't have "feelings" was a liar! Praying for your son and the rest of you.

Frank what a wonderful poem....good writing....good getting the feelings out too...I feel this is a great way to let the feelings out..and remember the Faith.....your family will make it thru this as the other stuff..in past...and we are here to support you and give you the all important HUGSS to Deb and yourself...hugsss,sarah

Frank that was a nice poem. :hug: I understand your fears. I felt the same way when both of our sons moved out. They are not autistic but at the time they left they were quite immature in many ways.

... Saying a little prayer for you, Deb and your son. :grouphug:

dude,

you really should write more...and collect them together and put it to a blog...maybe some publisher will wander through it and get you to publish...

will be keeping you guys in our thoughts and prayers.

:hug:

Frank - what a beautiful poem. I love how you expressed the journey we all face in different ways at different times....things that we care deeply about that are not in our control...so we end up taking that leap of faith into the unknown....

I pray this most recent leap for you and Deb will be proven to be a time of growth for you two as well as your son.

Thank you.....Nan

thank you, everyone, twas a sad night for Deb and I I helped ease her enough to get to sleep, then sat here with laptop thinking and thinking, waiting for son to call, started thinking this leaping leaves a pit in the stomach feeling and I started recalling those other times, and it did come easily so easily I deleted the first copy, mainly cause im a dork. and had to rewrite it.

when i was a sole parent me and two kids alone so many nights I wrote my darker poems why me type of stuff or its not fair , none of this I really care to write about, i rather write positive and happy stuff or of nature, I love nature,

so i would write them, then burn them, sort of a release of issues, and have noticed it helps a long time ago, I just dont help myself by not writing as often as I can as of late :eek: this is a nice place where we are able to be ourselves and so many wonderful people on here who are so supportive, thank you

Thanx for sharing this...i hope it's ok for me to say as a parent of an autistic boy i understand this one?