crawling out of the jello
 

july '07 a rock loaded 15 ton dumptruck t-boned my honda civic. no immediately visable injuries. i entered stephen king-land. more horrible than can be imagined. i figured the concusson would make me stupid. that's logical. ok. but i did not expect to also retain the mental awareness of the pre accident me. seperate. an observer, unable to scream for help while "stella" conversed minimally but lucidly. i was made out of different molecules than everything else. the worst days i remember best. crazy hallucinations. incapable of telling anyone. too real and normal to me like alice in wonderland. then needed a colon resection. unobservant doctors delayed the emergency surgery while concussive delerium communicated with infectous delerium sending me into the deepest chasm of hell.
i need to know....um.....i don't know.
neuropsychologist did tons of tests showing post concussive syndrome and the low energy neuro feedback has been extremely helpful. psychologist, not so much. freudian crap.
anyone else have bizzarre reality for more than a year? or at all? added personality? non recognition of pain like childbirth times 100 adding fire and brimstone?
doctors don't see past their clipboard, lawyers say soft tissue damage is not prosecutable. surgeon sez surgery had nothing to do with accident. i don't understand anything. or until another thought takes its place.
big truck hit me. don't know what to do.
wheeee. catharsis. too much info? sorry.

Welcome,
I'll make a copy of your post on our Traumatic Brain Injury and Post Concussion Syndrome forum.
here - http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum92.html

I hope you can find someone to listen and help you through this..

Hello and Welcome to Neuro Talk. Sorry about your reasons for finding us, but you found a great site. Folks here are so helpful and really nice. Follow the link and do not hesitate to post your questions concerns or ideas you may have, again welcome to NT

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Hi, and welcome to NeuroTalk! :) You will find a lot of very nice and informative people here. It's a great place to hang out. :)

Hi! Welcome to NeuroTalk. Wow, what a nightmare you've been through. I hope you can find some answers and some help real soon. This is a great site. Friendly, helpful and caring people to help you through your worst days and celebrate your best days!

I relate!
 

I too have non xray/mri definable injuries from a rear-end collision. Four years running with chronic pain and mobility issues, suicidal tendencies rememedied by anti-D's.

Lawyers for the insurance co. are so used to winning..they only worry if the plaintiff has been maimed into a non-human vegetable. BUT...I will not go away:bump: A bio-mechanical specialist has engineered/recreated the collision...and shows why I was damaged...while the vehicle (made of steel) was not so bad off!!!!

Take care ...:hug:

welcome to neurotalk ... there are lots of friendly and supportive people here so jump right in and start posting ... should you need help, don't hesitate to ask someone ... we are here to help ... again ...
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