I am so very sad....
 

This evening, I feel like I've discovered something that might mean that I've lost my best friend, my rock, my emotional centering friend...

and I want so so much for it to not be what I fear at all.... but I can't stop the fear.. and the incredibly deep sadness that such a thing would cause me..

for even if I am mistaken, even if I'm reading too much into it... It makes me realize how hard it would be, how impossible it would be, if my friend were to die and be gone forever.

I don't want to be left totally alone in this world.... even tho I know it is the fate of many of us. It's not fair.

Teri

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I so understand those fears and thoughts. When my daughter was in the hospital in ICU, I maintained. When she came home and the "what if's" got ahold of me, I wasn't maintaining at all. I've done similar too many times in my life...

In those times, I think it's really important to focus on WHAT IS. Goodness, that's a chunk to chew on its own! What if's can really take us to a bad place where focus can become skewed; where panic and depression can consume.

How can we help you to move away from the "what if's"? Do you need to verify some things? Do you need to have a discussion regarding this concern? I hope that you're able to disspell your concern. However, I've found that most of the time even when validating something not so good, it can be better than the "what if's" place I've taken myself to.

We're here.

KD

kimmydawn
 

Very wise words. Im sure we have all been in that bad place but if you look at all the good that can happen, it makes you feel better.
I have been there, and am there again.

Dana

I'm sorry you're in a bad place as well dana.

You know, I've thought about this and I think that when we got to that "what if" place...emotions, fears, thoughts and torments from several past events can grab hold of us there.

Since I've worked with alot of the past stuff, the "what if" place hasn't been nearly so scary and dark and if it is, I can come back from it more quickly.

KD

Teri,
I hope that you can find some assurance along the way and can be at pesce there....
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Terri,

I hope all turns out good.

befuddled2

I hope things turn out OK
 

I can only send my prayers and support, I had the overwhelming aloness, with my daughters life on the edge last year, I had such support from the forum that it got me through. Her life was by a thread and her own father never showed up for the multiple surgeries as they tried to save her.

I got such strength to get through whatever I would face from having hundreds from the forum send me prayers, wishes and support. When things improved they all celebrated that things were Ok too.

I pray all works out for your friend and you, I wish there were a pills for these anxiety's that pull us into a chest crushing emotional toil.
You are loved, and cared for,
I hope you can get this warm ol' hug I am sending.
Di

hi Teri
 

Hi Teri,

i too have been torn between perceptions, fear, and hope... sometimes, we really do see things we wish we didn't, and i pray this is not the case. but
sometimes one or two "false perceptions" set off our thinking into a spiral of similar "perceptions."

i really feel for you, and fear with you. may your doubts soon turn to relief.

((( hugs )))

~ waves ~

I don't know what to add here many wise words of advice has already been stated, I can relate to the fear. I too will be all alone some day, and I wonder who will take care of me. I have no brothers or sisters or a Dad.

Right now I am trying to live in the moment and it helps. I hope this fear subsides for you and you can get past it.

(((((((((((((((((((((((Teri))))))))))))))))))))))) ))

Nikko

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