UGH.......another ordeal
 

Hi,
The messenger went to the address we got at court, and the people said he doesn't live there anymore, now that's a LIE I can bet.
I went to my DV case mgr, I cannot press charges now, because it is in the States hands. I can press Civil charges for money, but that would be a waste of time the way he changes job and does disappearing acts.
I suppose at this point the server/messenger will wait until the next court date which is Oct 16th to serve him with the Order of Protection, since the other one is in effect, I am okay. The judge said he HAS to be there then.
I also did get a Court Advocate which is better, she works for the courts, instead of the one from the other womens center I went to.
I just don't know anymore, and I am sick of him playing games.
My p-doc upped my Cymbalta to one 60 mg and then one 30mg. If that doesn't work they are going to up my Lamictal from 200mg to whatever.
I am just having too many breakdowns of everything.
I have no energy to do anything, it's bad. I hate being like this.
Anyway, everyone have a great day................Hugs, Nikko:(

Dear Nikko,
Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and wish that this would just hurry up and be over...but
I know that this will take some time...
Learn to be kind to yourself and heal...you have been thru a lot!
(((HUGS)))
bizi

I am calming down somewhat........can you hear me screaming still? LOL

Just trying to keep up with all the appointments, my mom's care, the pets, the house, bills, etc.

With the physical pain and mental stress, it's real hard for me. I have my strong moments and my weak moments.

There never will be any real closure to this, I think about that too. I need closure, but I can't speak to him or see him, I just can't do that ever again. He has hurt me for the 3rd time or so. This is such a life changing situation, it just blow's my mind away.

I guess you can call it the EMOTIONAL ROLLER COSTER................

Just venting.....Hugs, Nikko:(

I think you are being very brave and I wish you a peaceful and relaxing weekend.
bizi