PCS steam to let off
 

Hi everyone,
I was injured falling off my bike 14 months ago. I was never formally diagnosed with PCS because basically my doctor is a ***** who has no idea what he's doing but I went through hell and was close to suicide for some time. Things are WAY better now though. My tinnitus isn't so bad, I experience depersonalisation and derealisation less often and I'm starting to have more energy although i'm still wanting to fall asleep everyday at 3 o clock. I push through though and I've achieved a lot. I have a new girlfriend who I love and am doing an art degree (which I love too). I still have a lot of difficulties with negative thought cycles and depression. I now experience terrible jealousy which I never have before.
Is it PCS? Who knows, maybe when something hits you hard in the head and scares the **** out of you (my concussion lasted 15 minutes and I was conscious the whole time) then your personality changes in reaction to the trauma. My memory is nowhere near as good as it used to be but it's good enough and my cognitive skills seem all unchanged. The memory stuff is linked to my depersonalisation though. When I dissociate in stressful or demanding situations I shut out the world and hence I don't remember things.
My family were not so great at coping with me being ill. They didn't do much to find out about what was wrong or make any attempt to get me help (except for a psychotherapist) and my mother basically refused to believe there was anything wrong with me (her way of coping...great). I was living in Berlin Germany at the time of the accident and had become so ill afterwards with anxiety that I ended up in hospital and then had to fly home so someone could look after me. She resented having to do this (I was 28) and pretty much just ignored me the whole time. Now I'm struggling to try and forgive her for this.
For any young people who are suffering with PCS or some kind of post concussive problem, I'd like to tell you that you need to be patient and good to yourself and make sure that the people around you understand what you're goin through. In time you'll recover and you'll probably learn a lot on the way.

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Benjamin,

You need to go to www.TBIGuide.com and print Dr Glen Johnson's guide. Read it then give it to your mom and others to read. It explains what is going on with you. Look in the phone book for a physician under Physical Medicine or Rehabilitation Medicine. Call those listed and find the one that is best with PCS or MTBI (mild traumatic brain injury) Check to see if your state has an Employment Rehabilitation Department. Your concussion lasted just seconds. The early symptoms lasted 15 minutes. The fact that you still have symptoms means you damaged your brain seriously.

Your personality has changed due to your concussion. Read about it in Dr Johnson's guide.

Avoid all alcohol and mind altering drugs. Listen to the Rehab Doctor. You might want to get a referral to a neuro-psychiatrist. There might be a need for some short term meds to help you cope.

Regarding your mom. Don't blame her. Physician's who are paid to care for us dismiss us more often than they take and interest and try to care for us. Your mom just does not have a clue what has happened to you. She also has a history with you. This sometimes predisposes parents to take an attitude of "Grow up, Son"

Find a local brain injury support group and attend a meeting. You will see that you are not alone and others will be very able and willing to help you.

And.... Learn that your life from now on will need to change. You need to do everything possible to avoid a second concussion. Your second concussion will be much worse.

Let us know how you are doing. There is a wealth of experience and compassion on this forum. I am not the compassionate one. I have live with PCS since I was 10 years old. Now, thirteen concussions later, my brain is scrambled.

Relax, give others a break, and take life a little slower.