NeuroTalk Support Groups - Opening old wounds and holidays

Quick update on the family,
It has been so quiet on the home front for the legal issues until this last month. It had been so emotional to fill in required responses to the wrongful death against the manufacture. I had to relive so many of the memories, and affects on the family my heart was tight in my chest. I cried towels full.

I went down the cemetary today and planted flowers for parents, grandparents, great grandparents and my daughter. I stayed for the Memorial day services and the new pastor from our Church spoke. Our Church is across the street from the cemetary.
My family from out of town were in and it was good to see them.
But the ache is so difficult to ignore. I try to hide it from the family but it is not easy.

I went through some winter things to pack away and found a Pooh Bear hat my dd would wear. I have been holding and keeping it with me all week.
My Aunt was concerned about how I hold onto her memories, but they are all I have. We ate at a Cracker Barrel last week and a young gal my dd age was in there that could have been her twin.....I had to just sit to look over and forget a few moments the present, and enjoy a brief moment to see her.

I am OK, but it is tough to be strong, holding it all in......
I just hope one day I find peace in my heart.
honey
Love to you all and my prayers are here with all each day.:grouphug: