The Hell With It
 

I give up it's just going to go away its been 2 years and im throwing in the towel this is my life from here on out the only thing that helps in Zaxax

I'm sorry you're feeling so despondent. I don't have a TBI or PCS but I do have Multiple Sclerosis. So I think I can somewhat relate to the stress of having a condition that, sometimes, nothing seems to help.

Do you have a friend or loved one that you can vent to? If not, sometimes just typing out your feelings here helps alot. I know if does for me. Just knowing that someone on the other end of that computer has an idea of what I'm feeling helps me so much.

Not sure what your weather is up in TN but I'm not too terribly far from you here in North Georgia and it's a gorgeous day here - although too hot for me. I cannot tolerate the heat so I'm being a hermit.

I truly hope you feel better. Wish I had more to offer than just words but I do care and hope you'll keep posting here. :)

I'm 8 years post brain injury and I too hit the stage when I gave up the fantasy of ever returning to my previous condition. It was a painful realization. But I changed my goal to stability and I have managed to get to a point where my functioning is consistent from day to day. You have to discover and accept your new you.

hi
 

hi tommy Ding Ding round 2 its hard mate, but I have found the realization and acceptance , some what liberating, there is a term in brain injury, speak of the plateau, were not much headway is archived, all we can do is plod on regard less

this is it
 

Hi Tommy I too am 8 years post injury. Problem is that I keep on bumping my head - what I did for this huge reaction was only a minor bump and now it takes hardly anything to set off symptons again.

About every 2nd year I have gone through the "this is it" thing and relax for a while and make the best of what I have and work around it. You do feel better for that. When I don't have that mind set I am constantly fighting it which makes you feel worse and wastes what little energy you do have. You are better using your energy on something else that you enjoy.

Like Melek has said on another post - she is very much like me - the energetic socialable( I can't spell too well now!) busy person! I have had to learn to like different things - quiet dinners out, early nights etc - I have to make choices that are for self preservation - like do I want to stay up and watch that rugby game and be tired for 3 days afterwards or go to bed at 10.00pm and watch the replay the next day and pretend it is live - things like that. Sometimes I think it is so unfair and I was too young and fit for this to happen - can't fix it so my choice for me has to be make the most of what I can - I still cry under the shower at times I must admit! You also need to surround yourself with positive people as you can drag yourself down without somebody else helping you!

My routine has saved me by not coming too tired before resting keeps the worst symtons away - especially anxiety and headaches/dizziness. Sometimes I can go an entire week and feel ok ( with my rests) and considering what I was like - that is an achievement.

Lynlee

Tommy - It's all okay dude ..
 

I hear ya bro! Tommy, I was a combat infantryman in the military and then went to a good college and graduated with honors. I had a nice 6 figure income. IT'S ALL GONE. The day I realized that I am a changed person, I burst out of the doctors office and CRIED my guts out like a 5 year old. My mom came out and consoled me but it was absolutely f'ing BRUTAL!!!!!!

Make no mistake bro ... THINGS DO (AND WILL) KEEP GETTING BETTER. But we will never be the same. That's why we have each other, my friend.

Dude, please, please, PLEASE take this situation to a professional. You need to vent & you'll benefit most from a therapist or shrink.

God Speed My Friend!!

Joe

PS. Your WELCOME to email me if need be ... I'll give you my phone # so we can talk.

thanks joe
 

thanks joe I hear you man, its the hardest thing , this acceptance ,be it pcs which can I feel can be overcome with time ,or tbi which needs a little more understanding, and some what more compassion, from the world . have you heard of the diamond clinic mate for the HA

Tommy, and everyone.
(Joe, thanks for your support)!

Sometimes, I've got to say two words, and I say my prayers, keep my faith, cry till I can't cry no more...
Then start all over.
***** out a love one or three.

Cry Some More, til I can't Cry No more.

Then, I have these Two "Little Secret Words".

And, I'm not gonna tell what they are.
At some point, even the most "level headed people" hafto say this to themselves, as I did, before "the day it happened".

Six letters altogether.
Word one,
Starts with an

"F"
has four letters,
second word, Starts with an

"I" and only has one more letter.

In short, it "could" be,

"F*** I*"

Sometimes, every once in a while, this is the only thing left....

It "Only Seems" that God isn't working fast enough.
That we're not coming along fast enough..
I find these the perfect two words,
for those occasions.

What do ya'll think?

Have anything better> More positive?


Pete