a change of heart, a change of mind
 

Well, it's been a while since i last posted. I was last seen under a large dark cloud of gloom that I could not see a way through.
I was inspired by a prayer and a healing touch.
I spoke to my mum who told me I should 'look on the bright side'. At the time I couldn't SEE a bright side.
and I thought I was in for a long journey into depression....

but i'm happy to report that things have improved.
I no longer have any side effects from the Beta jabs; that's got to be good...
I really feel that the Beta is working in the right direction...
I had a neuro appt today and was told in no uncertain terms that I was looking well, things are not worsening, and that I should look on the bright side!!!...
I refrained from shouting at him...
and was told by the receptionist to get back on my horse and enjoy life (literally)...
I didn't throttle her...
I went away and thought hard...
I went to speak to my counselling lecturer... and I've had a stark about-turn of thought and change of heart.

I am going to go into business offering counselling in my area. I CAN do it...I am ready... people will come... I am capable. I've worked hard on my course and I WILL use it.

Instead of thinking what I can't do, I'm thinking of all that I CAN do. Starting now. and I'm starting with writing a HUNDRED things that I am grateful for.

I've had it with MS. It is NO LONGER in charge.
I MUST give myself a break and let ME ENJOY life again.

I'm off to start my list :) :winky:

Hope you're all well out there. :hug:

That's the spirit!! :)

Always look forward....never back. I heard a saying yesterday that made a lot of sense to me. "Don't try to move forward looking in the rearview mirror....always look forward."

I'm so happy you're feeling better! :hug:

I am so happy that the Beta is less of a problem now. I love Beta, and had very few side effects from it. it was my number one choice for a DMD, but my liver didnt like it, so I got pulled. It really is hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. I am glad you were patient.

hang in there. :hug:

Yeaaaaaaaa Pud's..Way to go!!!..:hug:

Congratulations! Keep going!

Niko:cool:

Awwww I'm happy for you, Pud! I'm on Betaseron too. Just started it 5 weeks ago after being on Copaxone almost 10 years. It's going fairly well so far. I'm so glad to hear you sounding so positive. It does all our hearts good here on NT. :hug:

:(
Was I TOO HAPPY?

Was I too AMBITIOUS??

Was I far too JOLLY???

Or was the god of crap fever smiling down at me?

Last night I had THE worst side effects EVER!!! Blimey !! Smother me with a pillow NOW, Someone!!!

That'll teach me to count my chickens eh? :eek:

Well, crapola!!!!!:(

i hope that was just a fluke and you con't on your upward swing.

Are you on a full dose yet? If you're titrating up sometimes the increase in dosage will cause an episode of side effects. Since its an Interferon most people will generally have some type of side effects when increasing the dose.

I hope you feel better today. Sometimes it takes a while to adjust to those meds. :hug: