[dshue]

Hey --

I've been dilligently avoiding, obsessively denying, the idea of disability.

Probably why I put off for a long time seeing the pyschologist at my pain doctor's office. In our first meeting she asked, "Why aren't you on disability?" It was a pretty good question.

After a few bad turns here recently, I have had to slowly, painfully, come to accept the idea. Kind of like denying to yourself, "no, no, my girlfriend isn't sleeping with my best friend; that's impossible" kind of thing. But then of course she is.

So now I'm doing all my necessary homework, from which I've become more depressed, but amid the awfulness, I find I guess I am lucky to live in one of the states that has at least something that is quicker then the hellish indignity of waiting on Social Security.

Here in California there seems to be the pretty immediate disability option.

I would love if anyone who has received disability from the state of California could, as I've literally just started trying to comprehend the process, relay their experiences.

Thanks.

-- Dennis