[stressedout]

Sorry I haven't been here the past month.I don't post much but read all the time looking for help or answers.

In May my house burned down killing my 6 dogs and the kids lizards and fish. It was very traumatic, as I was picking up my kids from school and my son is on the volunteer fd and got the call as school was getting out. I raced home but it was totally engulfed. Nothing could be saved. It was horrible watching my daughter run down the street screaming and then collapse.We first stayed at a hotel, then a camp, now we are in a rental house buy it is not HOME. The ins co thinks a faulty appliance-coffee maker. It was off but plugged in. People have been very supportive, just when you think the world is full of hate. Then we had money stolen from us as moving guys were bringing in rental furniture; that's it kick me when I'm down. To make matters even worse, my husbands job has been sending them home and telling him not to come in because there is no work. i am scared he will lose his job and I am still out of one. We want to rebuild but I am so scared that we'll both be out of work and lose it. We barely get by as it is.

We are heartbroken over our pets...they were show dogs, agility dogs and they got me through this past painful yr dealing with the RSD. My friend just happened to have a pup that she sent to us to help us get through. Not sure what I would do without him.

Anyway, to my arm....It actually hasn't been too bad. t's still bigger than my other hand and shakes. Pain is still there but not as bad as it was. I have actually been using it more. However, at night it gets relly bad. I am not sure if it's getting better or not, better in summer? or just because I have pretty much been running on adrenalin? My life right now just seems so uncertain. I want my home, my dogs, my life without pain back, good jobs again. How much worse are things going to get? What have I done to deserve all this?