[bassman]

I am beginning a new treatment of my rheumatoid arthritis later today – infusion of Remicade. I don’t know why, but for some reason I am feeling apprehensive about this. Over the years, I have been willing and ready to try all sorts of things for my RSD and (more recently) for the rheumatoid with little or no reservation. But for some reason, I am on edge about this treatment course.

Fear of the unknown is often the greatest fear. I am guessing that once I am in the chair, relaxing with my paperback novel, I can just let it happen. But last night I was tossing and turning like nobody’s business.

Maybe subconsciously I am just thinking: “Here we go with yet another expensive treatment that probably won’t work, either.” I probably need to set a positive attitude. That’s just so hard to do when the pain is so great.

Mike