[dreambeliever128]

As far as I know I will have the surgery for the Vegal Nerve Simulator for depression in the next few weeks. He does surgery on Fridays and my PCP has to be there so they have to sencranize their watches.

He seems very good. I asked him how many he's done. I will be the 3rd for him but he's an ear nose and throat specialist so he works on that area anyway.

He explained it to me where the incisions will be and we talked about the RSD. He said it was very hard to do a block for that part of the neck but he will put in extra meds for it. He has one patient that has cancer that he says is dealing with RSD like symptoms but he's hoping that it won't be the case for me.

He's a very nice down to earth younger Dr. I was at ease with him.

I am excited but I cried all the way home. All I could think of was Bill not bein here to enjoy this part of life with me. After 34+ years of dealing with me with depression, he's not going to be here with me if I get through this.

He was the best though. He never complained about the shape I was in.

He was a jokester forever. Dustin told me that Susan had told them about the joke he pulled years ago. He tied a string to a purse and laid it out in the road and when a car would stop by to check it out he would pull it away. Dustin said that he and some other kids did it last week. Travis said it was like having 3 kids instead of two with him around.

I am trying to pull myself together and see the good that will come out of this surgery. I know it will make my life better if it works. The Dr. seems to think it will.

I just wanted to share the good news with all of you. Your family.

Ada