[6kiddos]

Just one of those day for me. I feel kinda weepy. No real reason either. sigh. We are still in WA while I recover from gallbladder surgery (which, thank goodness, seems to have not made the RSD to spread). I have my 2 week follow up with the surgeon on Friday and we leave for AZ (home) on Saturday. I am dreading going home and dealing with the normal stuff. I have to figure out how to get my home back in order...the closets are all a mess. =( I am overwhelmed with it all. I am also sad my kids are heading back to school...I really do enjoy having them around! Most moms around me look forward to school starting, not me...my kids are just fun to be around and talk with. I like to play games, take them to the park, etc. (of course I have not done as much as I used to now, but I can still play things like phase10 with them, etc. I even like my teenager..lol.
Of course things are stressful lately...money is very tight...(medical bills, an old tax bill we have been paying on was supposed to be on a payment plan but it hadn't been "officially" noted so they levied dh's paycheck meaning we got a $300 paycheck and then lost $600 for the next two, the suburban had the fuel pump go bad...another $1000, it needed the sparkplugs replaced and it came it WAY over the estimate...another $268, and I have to find the $$ to buy school supplies for 6 kids...). AAAHHH. So, today I am feeling like just crying. I should be ok...but I just don't know. Maybe it is just one of those things to have a day like this. On top of my emotions, today is NOT a good pain day. sigh. My feet are SOOOO cold and they hurt. Our good friends are coming up this afternoon on their own airplane, they want to take us up and I just don't know if I will be able to handle the vibrations. I generally do pretty well but I am not sure about today. (I personally think I have been lucky that the blocks pushed back the burning, sensitivity, etc. It isn't nearly as bad as it used to be).

Sorry for the vent. Thanks for listening.
J

[hannah1234]

I feel the same way. My doctors hqve turned on me. And I just give up and just ball my eyes out all day and night the past few days. I'm tired of being given hope and being let down. I'm so young and its not right of doctors to just give up and push you onto someone else. Sorry you are having a rough time...hang in there... I guess I should take my own advice.

Hannah