Heidi

I wish I was closer because that would be a REAL hug. I hate the days when I want to just give up. For me it will rear its ugly head every few months. I just get tired of forcing myself out of bed, and then going out and not be able to do everything I aim to do.

One of the things I tell my wife when Im feeling all down and out. Laying on the bed in so much pain that it cant be humanly possible to tolerate...I tell her, it isnt fair. It just isnt fair!

I vent and cry, and sometimes this might take a few days. But after I get out the anger and frustration. I start self talking myself out of bed for a while. then I self talk to get outside...pretty soon I am getting dressed, and heading out the door to do whatever I can push myself to do without hurting myself too bad.

Sometimes the frustration, anger and feelings of...is this it? Can make the pain worse. I will be praying with everything I know to put a good doctor in your path. We are all here for you, you are only a mouse click away from a shoulder to cry on, or person to vent to.