[dreambeliever128]

to do things that must be done.

I know my best friend is probably mad at me. She is in the Nursing Home and I promised her last week I would go and see her. I am going this morning but only because I have to have bloodwork and the nursing home is part of the hospital. She's been in and out of the hospital for a month and now in the nursing home and I just have not been able to go see her.

I go to bed at night thinking I will go and see her the next day but don't. I cancelled two Drs. appt. last week because I couldn't make myself go to them.

I use to never be this way and never told anyone I would do something that I didn't do.

This is driving me nuts. I just feel like I can't get anything done I need to do.

Is this part of my depression or do you guys see this with the RSD. I do know that a lot of you deal with both so I don't know if any of you can answer this for me. I thought I'd ask anyway.

Thanks,
Ada

[carose]

As I type this with tears in my eyes I wish I could write Sorry I don't have the problems you are having--except that what you wrote really hit home. I have two friends in nursing home. One on each side of town, I truly love these ladies, but I have not been able to force myself to go see them. I think it is part of both RSD and depression, but as I thought about what you wrote I think I do not want to go to the nursing home because I don't want to think I may one day end up there. I hate going to the hopital and to the Dr. it is like they have replaced the fun things in my life. Don't know if this helps, but am sending Take Care Carose

[bassman]

I, too, seem to have a lot less motivation lately. I have had RSD for a long time, but recently also added RA that has progressed rapidly. The extra pain has now made it very hard to get any ambition.

I was always a go-getter type of guy. A real "type A" kind of person. Even with pain, I would work through it, especially to do things that really have to be done. But lately, I have to really push myself to get even the simplest things accomplished. At work, I have to push extra hard, because that stuff won't wait.

I wouldn't blame the nursing home as such, but rather the thought doing anything to make the hurt greater. Perhaps?

That is also a common symptom of depression. I'm glad you recognize it. If it get's too bad, make sure you talk to an MD or PhD about. It could progress to the point where you have no ambition to even eat - and that can lead to trouble.

Love and hugs,

Mike

[JOAN_M]

It could be depression and it could also be that you are tired, or both. sometimes a flight of stairs looks like mountain to me. don't be so hard on yourself. we do what we do and what we can, and should not do more .... some days we can do more than others .. thus the spoon theory.
joan

[junk4myemail]

I am in agreement with Joan. It could be both. Because of the RSD, I hate to drive, it hurts my leg so badly. Also, with depression you get to where you want to do something but cannot bring yourself to actually do it. Which in turn sometimes makes the depression worse.

If you have been on the depression meds for awhile (if you are on them), you should call your doc and explain that the depression might be stronger than the meds at this time and you would like to review the dosage and symptoms with him/her. Maybe they need to be upped. Definitely worth the try. Then if you don't see a change, it is more RSD related than depression related. But if you do see a change than you can go see your friend and not tell yourself tomorrow.

Hugs.

[Desi]

Ada, Dear.. you ARE NOT ALONE in feeling this way. I have been on EffexorXR(Anti depressant) for years, and ever since I was Diag. with this RSD .. it just drains me. I feel guilt for not playing sometimes with my little girl, I feel guilt by not having dinner on the table most nights. I thank God I have a good hubby who doesn't care and will go out to buy me dinner, or make me and our little one dinner. I'm telling you, even though I am on my Effexor, I still feel depressed. It's the pain, not sleeping, then trying to get comfortable to "Sleep".. then waking up in pain, then back to bed. I have so much I wanted to do since we redecorated our entire home last August, and there is clutter eveywhere. I'm lucky if I do a load of laundry a week. This sucks!! Hang in there, like I said, Ada, you are NOT ALONE! Love, Desi

[dreambeliever128]

I did get down today to see my best friend but my other friend just went home yesterday.

I got my xray done but to get my bloodwork done, I need to fast. I remember the Nurse saying something about fasting but it didn't seem like she was talking to me. There was another Nurse in there with us. Who knows, I just didn't get it, I guess.

Also had to change my appt. for tomorrow because they have to send the bloodwork to the Mayo Clinic. The Nurse had to look up 2 of the test because she didn't know what they were or how to do them. So I have to get back up in the morning and go back down to have that done. I didn't know we had a Mayo Clinic in Denver.

Tonight, I'm so worn out, I can't think straight.

Junk, I just wanted to say, I'm not on depression meds. I can't take them. I have an implant for depression. It's not doing the job yet. We have to turn it up 2 more times.

Desi, Like you, I want to do some things to my place and just don't have the energy to do anything. Same way with the laundry, if Susan didn't do it, I would be running around in dirty clothes.

i just find it hard to accept this problem. I get so mad at myself when I get up and get dressed to go somewhere and then don't walk out the door.

Thanks,
Ada

[Imahotep]

Motivation is really one of the biggest parts of my problem. The pain and fatigue are big parts of my lack of motivation. I suppose depression is a part too and also there's the never knowing when my symptoms will hit.

But it still seems to go even beyond this sometimes. The wind just goes out of my sails and I'm afraid to do much of anything.

[lostmary]

I've been wanting to reply to this thread since it started. Yea...sometimes doing anything just seems like too much. I'm hoping it's the meds and I will soon get used to them. otherwise...we may all starve to death as shopping is just too much work..lol..
Mary

[Linmarie]

Hi Ada,
The PAIN. I did some things that needed to be done yesterday then last night & today - more pain! I think that is the #1 reason I don't want to do things. I know I will probably suffer more as a result & that is depressing.
Linmarie