Hi all! today is my Birthday!! who-Hooooooooo!! Ok.. now I feel so darn quilty! ok.. my husband Bill comes into our bedroom with this huge cake, purple roses, whipped cream frosting.. yada.. yada.. a Birthday card, says he called our two son's to come over today and "celebrate"!! Ok.. I say, real mean.. and I mean bitchy!! I'm like.. Bill, just leave me alone, I'm in pain, having a bad day and I actually lock our bedroom door!!! here, my 7 yr. old daughter knocks on our door, comes into our bedroom door holding a hand made card, I take it thank her, kiss her and give her a hug, tells her mommy needs to sleep. Friends.. What in the heck is wrong with me today?? I mean, Bill surprises me, I am in pain and then I go off on him!!! I think this is terriable of me to do this to him!! All I want to do today is sleep, don't even want company, as I look like something that the dog "dragged in" I am feeling sorry for myself on my Birthday, take it out on him and now all I want to do is have no visitors.. etc. My son's called and said;"mom, we are coming over anyway"!! gosh, I feel like a blob just wanting peace and quiet, I am having "Break through pain" starting late lastnight. my hubby called my pain doc. and he told my hubby to come up there to his office, as FDA laws prohibit refills on this kadian and they are not allowed to give refills on this type of pain medication, or mail me the script. so he needs to pick it up. I so wanted today to be a good day for my Birthday, and as luck would have it.. I am having a rotton no good for nothing painful Birthday.. wish it was over. thanks for reading this far, as I know I am feeling sorry for myself that I HAD to get this darn pain starting late lastnight!! grrrrrrrrr.. thanks for the vent.. going back to bed. Maybe I'll feel better latter. BUT there is NO EXCUSE the way I went off on Bill!! talk about the guilt trip I'm laying on myself!! Love, hugs Desi