Debbie{gigglebabe} I didn't get to call you back last night. My phone never quit ringing. Thank you for calling and you can call anytime. Talking to all of you has helped keep me busy and keep my mind off of Bill.

Janet and Claudia, thanks to you both for calling me and keeping me company by phone. My nights are the worst.

I reach over and feel for Bill's hand at times. He always said we would never sleep in seperate beds like a lot of older people do and we never did. I always worried that I would keep him awake by tossing and turning and getting up all night to go to the bathroom.

If I went to a different bedroom he would end up coming to look for me. I keep thinking of the last days and things he would do. He was always coming in the back door and leaving it open.

I would get mad at him at times and he'd tell me he'd love me and when I didn't say anything he would say you don't have to say it, I know you do. That would get me more because I thought he was so sure of himself. LOL

I go Monday to deal with SS. I have surgery on the 7th.

It seems like there is so much to deal with. I have been on the phone for 2 days dealing with business. Someone told me SS only gives you 10 days to deal with them. They sure don't care what people are going through.

I haven't been sleeping at all at night. I leave my tv on just to hear voices.

Thanks again for all of your support and I do enjoy the phone calls.

Ada