Sandy,
I feel your pain.
I really don't know what to add, that hasn't been said.
(I've been operating on a cluster migraine (whatever it's called) for the past week.)
I don't have my thoughts together well right now, sorry.

Other than this,
You WILL (By nature of yourself, your tenacity) Find the Good Doctors that you need!
(A good doctor, I've found, can tell an awful lot, just by looking at you, or us), Our expressions, our posture, what part(s) of our bodies we "favor", what we say can be secondary to them, "The Good Doctors".

The only thing I'd say, is at this date (anniversary), you should focus your efforts on just that! Finding "The Good Doctors", who will take you into your future!

Love and hope to you,

Pete