my husband's health is declining at a rate that is very scary, and he clearly feels awful. There really isnt much the doctors can do anymore and he refuses to go in to see his doc or specialist saying all they can do is say he is worse, which he already knows cuz of how he feels

at the same time, where business had picked up nicely last month, this month is like the bottom dropped out.

I am usually pretty calm even in adversity, but I recognize I am having panic/stress reactions
I am maintaining a facade of calm and coping for hubby's sake so as not to cause him any further stress etc...but I feel like someone released a zillion butterflies in my tummy....

please pray for us.