It's been eight months now, sence the car accident. Eight months of non stop pills, of pain, and panic. Post concussive syndrome and post traumatic stress have destroyed the person I was. I learned how to read again and do simple math. But it wasn't enough- I've lost my job at a church and used all my savings. Just when I think things are going to get better I am let down again. I am very tired of people saying it will get better. i'm tired of not having the will to get out of bed for days. I'm tired of not being able to focus and do the things I did before. I just want my life back but I can't find me. I don't think this will ever end. I'm going to be a burden on the people who love me forever. No one wants to live with "rain man". I feel broken even though I look fine. I wish I could dissapear. Is this ever going to end? Am I ever going to get better?